♥ Lilly Munster Aint Got Nothing On You.♥

godsmacked_faerie@yahoo.com — Wed, 23 Feb 2005 00:44:50 GMT

I dyed my hair plum... and took pictures! check them out at boobitchcraft, my new journal.... oh, and while your there, you might as well add me. ~_^ this journal is being deleted in a day or so.

Nothing special.

godsmacked_faerie@yahoo.com — Wed, 09 Feb 2005 02:08:50 GMT

So nothing to serious has been going on since my last update (Considering it was merely a hour or so ago).
JR just called me, he almost got into an accident today. YIKES.
Other than that, Tim and I are together, I really don't remeber whether or not I updated about that since we broke up, but yeah, shit hit the fan, but luckily our love made it through.
<333 One and and a half offically this month.
<333

Other than that, My sister got married, and shes fat.
BECAUSE SHES PREGNANT.
but i think I already updated about that too...

:::School:::

Like always before, i don't have many friends, but *ohwell*.
I pretty much just hang out with Anjelica, that is when she comes to school.
I miss last year so much.
We were all idiots, but I miss Stephanie so much.
She was the best friend I have ever had.

Ugh.

Still alive

godsmacked_faerie@yahoo.com — Tue, 08 Feb 2005 22:33:18 GMT

::waves::

I'm not dead.

Pictures...

godsmacked_faerie@yahoo.com — Tue, 28 Dec 2004 17:23:26 GMT

Look... I haven't Died.

Falling Lacuna Coil
I stand, looking at my hands
I talk with these lines
That's not the answer
I cry and now I know
looking the sky
I search an answer
So free, free to be
I'm not another liar
I just want to be myself... myself
And now the beat inside me
is a sort of a cold breeze and I've
never any feeling inside
around me...

I know I live... but like a stone I'm falling down
Damned, looking into the sky
I can feel this rain
right now it's falling on me
fly, I just want to fly
life is all mine
some days I cry alone,
but I know I'm not the only one
I see that another day is gone
I don't wanna die...
Please be here when I arrive, don't die... please

<333
-Kittie.

godsmacked_faerie@yahoo.com — Tue, 23 Nov 2004 04:12:52 GMT

Scratch that last entry.
It's happened already. don't fool yourself into thinking There is still a chance, because there isnt.

Shelby And Tim are over.

We're done.
I'm not.
But he is.

your voice has chased away all the sanity in me....

This isnt a break up. This is just the end of what I thought and planned to be the beginning of my life....I've based my future around this person for the last year and half of my life. NEVER have I thought of life without him.

Your presence still lingers here...And it wont leave me alone....

I really hope Tim is reading this. I really hope he realizes that this is the worst christmas gift ever. I hope he knows he is never going to get me back, after all the pain he's caused me. My wedding songs have become my Funeral songs. In a since, I have died....No one can compare to how I feel right now.
And instantly I am a child again...

Thank you Beloved Tim. Thank you for the most wonderful year of my life, and thank you for Revealing to me the true you, the one who breaks promises, the selfish one, The heart breaking one. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

I am lonely. I want someone to love me, I need someone here right now to hold me, and tell me I did nothing wrong. Someone to help me want someone other than him, Somone who can keep me occupied, and away from such thoughts.
What have I done?

and I've held your hand through all these years....

Just leave me alone. I don't want your pity. I don't want your friendship.

You used to captivate me...

Memories To Waste:

1. Watching The glass house together back in August of 2002....The movie sucked, but the fact that you let me lean on you made the trip, and the extra time in the bathroom perfecting my makeup and hair.

2. Our first phone conversation When I was still with Tam, And you told me you could never have stopped loving me...

3. When you told me nothing could tear us apart.

4. Our first Kiss. You know? Sitting on Stephanies Swing, she was bitching us out because we we're going to get her in trouble, and you grabbed me and kissed me.

5. Our first time.

6. When we made that silly little contract of love....

7. My mothers wedding....when We danced together, and you took care of me in my drunken state of mind, heh....

8. All the times we just sat in bed, and help each other...

9. When you told me you would always love me.

10. When you carved a big "S" in your leg.

11. Everytime you used to talk about our future kids.

12. Every little kiss.

13. Every little murmured sweet nothings...

14. Home Coming...

15. "Nothing else Matters" by Metallica.

It isnt fair.
you've ruined my life.
What have I done to you?

Please...someone let me know this isnt the end of the world, because it sure as hell feels like it.

godsmacked_faerie@yahoo.com — Tue, 09 Nov 2004 19:44:31 GMT

So...Long time- no post, huh? Hahah.
I'm currently getting ready for work, and waiting for the kids to get home, but other than that I've been sitting on my ass all day...
I finally got to finish the end of Van Helsing. What a great movie...I'm kindof suprised that a movie so "hot-toppicy" Was, [One], So incredibley good, and [two], Not on every tee-shirt of every little Shit walking around school/the mall.
It kindof occured to me, that maybe because it had alot more to do with the First Hollywood vampire? Dracula? Now, theres two kinds of stupid "vampire fans" they're are the fat heads, who think that Draculas "fake" and "gives-vampires-a-bad-name"....WELL NO SHIT SHERLOCK. Dracula, the original version was what made vampires such a big fashion nowadays....Sorry, but that movie rocked, and OBVIOUSLY people who might actually know what there talking about when it comes to vampires would know not to accosiate Dracula with "Actual Vampires".
Than again, Lestat can live for houndreds of years, sprout fangs and turn to stone in the sun, but lestat, Apperently so, IS GODLY. ::sarcasm::
The other kind of annoying "vampire" fanatic is ofcourse the idiots who have never even seen Dracula, nor read any of the good, and readable "cheesy-horror" vampire books, but call themselfs a vampire because They saw it on a teeshirt at hot-topic, or saw Underworld.

BLAH.
As you can see, Miss Kittys in a very Bad mood right now.

PeEkTuReS!!

godsmacked_faerie@yahoo.com — Mon, 01 Nov 2004 17:55:59 GMT

Oh, the results boredom....Well, anyways....Pictures, anyone?

Supporting my love for old cheesy Teen horror movies, from the 70s and 80s.

Chucky Turns me on. ::heart::

Prom Queen, Anyone?

I like this picture...

No Kitty, That's Meh Pie!

godsmacked_faerie@yahoo.com — Sat, 30 Oct 2004 20:22:02 GMT

I won 2nd place at the Mana Costume party, dressed as the cheshire cat. ::grins::
Yeah, so I gotta get going to Party city soon, to see about finding Elve ears, but I have a little time to Update...
I saw JR at the mall with what I think was eric, and that was cool...I haven't seen him in a while, and I must say, he looked good. He's going to be quite the little studd up in Tampa. hehe.
Oh, I got pictures from the haunted house earlier this morrow, at the dojo [where I work], and Some of the party last night.

Peektures!

godsmacked_faerie@yahoo.com — Fri, 29 Oct 2004 19:32:48 GMT

Some new pictures, some old ones.
It really sucks. I had some very cute Pictures, but they were too big to post...I'll get around to Resizing them when I get a chance.
Oh the loneliness.

See? Even Legolas Is Dressed for the holidays.
[He's A drunk prostitute. isn't it obvious?]

Peeeee.....

godsmacked_faerie@yahoo.com — Fri, 29 Oct 2004 17:09:34 GMT

I have to Pee. ♥

Yay! Tim's coming over to my house when he gets out of school...this makes me much happy in the pants. ♥
haha, Kidding. Or Am I? O.o
I'm kinda not looking forward to This halloween. ::Frowns::
As matter of fact, I'm really not looking forward to The coming christmas...Just isn't as fun when you don't have a bestfriend to share it with.
FUCK.
Why couldn't I stop believing in bestfriends in Elementary like everyone else did?

♥♥♥

Lookie Here.

godsmacked_faerie@yahoo.com — Fri, 29 Oct 2004 16:18:58 GMT

New Journal for me....woooo...
Because I'm stellar like a motherfucker.

I'm not going to bless you all with a introduction....My user info is for that shit, duh.
Anyfuckingways...Nothing completely intresting going on...I was originally supposed to go to school today, but That just didn't seem to happen....hm.
Yeah, so...Nothing to update about.
Oh, does anyone know how to use a Phonebook? I'm atempting to track down Party city, and see if they have any body suits.
I'm going to be a Cheshire cat for halloween.
::Laughs Maniacally::