Ex-girlfriend

Time:

04:38 pm

dudes. i am alive.

susan, i want my book but like i never see you and stuff. :[ sigh.

uhm i am about to go to my cousin's graduation and i want to finish getting ready but my step dad likes to shower at the last minute. ass.

yeah me and matt are pretty good. i need a job, car, lisence, hell even a permit. wow i suck.

i hope you all are doing fine. i'm pretty good. kitty is good. i have no clean socks, though, that really sucks. i'll wear some clean ones that don't match, or a pair of not very worn socks. i dunno, yet.

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January 12th, 2005

Time:

05:46 am

hi guys.

nothing is new. i play pool. sometimes i suck and sometimes i scare people because i kick ass. it depends on the night, on the feel, and stuff like that. i don't think i'm that great yet but i do notice the improvements here and there. i've been spending a lot of time over at matt's, nights included, because his mom has been out of town for the past week and will continue to be for two more. she's in hawaii with her daughter and her new grandson. so exciting for them. i have a headache though and this is really uninthusiastic so i'm going to just .. go. see some of you at little bosnia. bye.

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December 31st, 2004

December 10th, 2004

Time:

07:23 pm

an update? gasp. an update.

i have to work tomorrow and sunday morning, at a rummage sale. the work sucks but the extra money is worth it for christmas.

me and matt are 'exclusively dating' now. like no one saw that coming, lmao.

i cut my bangs today, because i saw some scissors and was like YAY CHOP CHOP

i'm really bored. matt is at work, and cat is probably out with her " college friends " LOL. i told everyone i wasn't going to hang out tonight but i really want to. ;/ to be perfectly honest it's just because i don't want to be away from matt but shhh :x

bye now

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December 2nd, 2004

November 22nd, 2004

November 19th, 2004

Time:

10:20 pm

Okay. I'm doing this strictly to pass time, since I'm not leaving the house 'til sometime after midnight. Nothing much has been up with me lately. I spend almost all of my nights playing pool and being with Matt, Catherine, Nick, and sometimes others like Tree and Jasmine. Last Sunday we went up to the bowling alley where Brandon works and found out that it wsa a hang out for a lot of the people we used to hang out with, IE: Garin, Lisa, etc. I was really surprised, and happy, and we dragged them to the pool hall with us once the alley closed. Garin disappeared out of the blue without a goodbye and I still don't know what the hell happened with him.

Anyway. I'm rambling to help keep my attention off of the clock. I'm extremely impatient, and it drives me nuts when time passes slowly, especially the way that it does when you're waiting. I really hope Matt doesn't take an hour to get ready after he gets off work. I just want to leave. I want to smoke some. I want to play some pool, and I seriously need to work on my breaking skills. Yuck. I used to be able to break just fine and now it's aweful. So aweful. There's no "e" in aweful, and I find it funny how I continue to spell it like that. Eh. This has only passed about 3 minutes of my time. Fuck you deadjournal. Fuck you in the ass. IN THE ASS! Maybe I should go read or go update one of my celebrity Role-playing journals. I could always work on my Sandler layout.

P.S. Get a greatestjournal. It's better than deadjournal. Free photo hosting. 1000 free images. 1000 icons. Make styles and layouts. ALL FREE. Go.

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November 13th, 2004

November 12th, 2004

November 2nd, 2004

Time:

04:08 am

If you're an American registered voter, and you do not vote, then you have lost your right to complain.

Keep that in mind whilst you sit on your asses today.

P.S. Being anti-government and not voting because you're anti-government isn't only stupid, but a complete waste of space. Go move somewhere else and leave room for someone who actually cares about this country.

-Not voting because you're too lazy is stupid. Move somewhere else.
-Not voting because you don't feel like it, is stupid. Move somewhere else.
-Complaining about Bush and then not voting, is stupid. Go die in a hole somewhere.
-Coming up with excuses not to vote aside from not being of age, is stupid. There's no reasonable excuse besides the fact that you don't care enough to live here.
-Believing everything you see on TV, a newspaper, or a movie is stupid. It's called propaganda. And that goes for both parties.
-Whoever is elected -- is your president, like it or not. That goes for everyone. Saying you're going to flee to Canada if someone is elected or re-elected is stupid. If you don't actually do what you said you were going to, I hope you get shot in the head. That should put you out of your misery.

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October 31st, 2004

October 26th, 2004

Time:

06:34 pm

meg's criticisms of the day. yay.

first of all, my icons suck. they're cheesey. they're jpegs. the quality is aweful. they aren't even easy on the eye.

second of all, deadjournal has some nasty fucking colors. i know they're trying to draw in the " goth " crowd or the " darker side " or the " outcasts " but being able to read without getting a headache or feeling sudden claustrophobia is more important, to me, than trying to portray a trendy psuedo facade that is " goth ".

i'm not bashing the lifestyle, if dressing in dark clothes is part of who you are, whatever and good for you. but seriously? throwing a label on yourself and on others as well as using stereotypical themes, such as deadjournal is, turns you, your friends, and the lifestyle you promote into nothing but carbon copies.

labels are used to describe the kind of clothes you wear, and should never be used to describe someone as a whole. by doing so, you've suddenly turned a person into one word, and that word is generally not appealing to a mass of people who don't support that kind of lifestyle. the same goes with the word " prep ". that makes me sick. like someone who wears pastels and shops at the gap is suddenly less of a human than you are.

-- and that, my friends, is the most idealistic belief that i have harbored in my overly critical and conservative brain. i'm going to go shoot myself now.

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October 24th, 2004

Time:

06:23 pm

God, reading my own journal makes me sick.

What kind of self-pitying crap did I go through a year ago? I had posted most of it in hopes of turning someone's eye in my direction.

It. Makes. Me. Sick.

Anyway. I spent the weekend drunk, alone, in my house. Except last night I went to Matt's, and I got high. And then I remembered why I don't get high. Because it's stupid. And you're stupid.

It's all stupid.

Fuckass.

What's up? Someone fill me in on all the drama, your posts are confusing the shit out of me.

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September 4th, 2004

Time:

04:47 pm

I'm updating.

Yeah, shut up. I know I pulled the asshole card last time, but it's a free country, and I felt the need to say all of that.

Anyway. This past week I've actually left the house. Jasmine and Tree and Catherine have been getting me out, and after last night I wouldn't doubt it if I had to add Joe and Dan to that list. This seems to bring back vivid memories. Oh God. Oh dear Lord. Cheese and rice.

Supposedly Joe and Dan are going to call me in a bit, once Dan gets to his house. I think they might drag me out for a few hours. That should be interesting.

Okay, so, I took these like 5 minutes ago..

( Pictures. )

Okay, and now I'm gonna' go. Bye.

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June 25th, 2004

Current Music:	Phil Collins - One more night.
Time:	01:29 am
Current Mood:	crappy

See, normally I'd be bothered to realize that none of you probably even remember who I am, but no, I don't give a shit. I don't even remember who I have friended on this journal, so read at your own risk. I feel like updating for the sake of updating, and I'll just let you guess.

Now for a little update on me:

I turned 18 last March and I just graduated in May. I broke up with Ryan, a 10 month relationship, and I'm having a hard time accepting him back into my life, because I don't want to. Honestly, I think it's too late for him to be trying again. Anyway. I am now addicted to Marlboro 27's, yes I dropped reds, and I smoke a pack a day. I know, it's disgusting. But that's what happens when your parents buy you cigarettes, because they're nice and stuff.

OKAY. I don't leave my house. I don't like hanging out with anyone, even you people. I can't stand most of you, for the simple fact that you bore me to death and are completely uninteresting, cliche, caught up in your stupid " anti-trends ", and always revolve around the same fucking retarded drama and labeling sprees. Come on, guys, I got out of the " anti-prep I'm-so-goth-I'm-cool-look-at-me " stage a looong fucking time ago. How old are you people? It's not your fault, I've just become a bitter bitch who doesn't like contact with the real world. So that's why you haven't seen my in a year. :D Fuck the mall and fuck everything else you guys do. Coffee House and whatnot.

I know I don't have much room to speak, I'm a lazy unemployed highschool graduate who won't do anything productive in her life. But that's okay, because I'm comfortable with who I am, and comfortable enough with myself to know what's stupid and what's not. And I'm definitely not stupid like you, dumbass.

If God doesn't save me before I die, I'll see all you anti-Christian fuckwads in hell. Go read a bible. Oh, and go to the Gap and buy some new pants. Hot Topic is cute, but, you're going a bit overboard. Stop trying to make a statement, and just make it already.

This is and isn't a direct statement to you. I don't know who you are or who will read this. The previous statement is targetted towards the general public in which I assume, at least, 50% of people who come in contact with my journal will qualify. As well as qualify to be honored, and blessed, with the opportunity to kiss my unwashed ass.

Fuck you. Have a nice day.

P.S. I, now thinking about it, also hate a lot of you because of all the effort I put into helping you guys out. All the effort I put into giving you advice when you needed it, and being their while you were down, despite the problems I had and no one gave a shit to listen to. I never got credit for any of it. I was just there. Just there. That's all. Your loss.

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September 3rd, 2003

Time:

07:14 pm

Oh, oh, the drama. You silly fuckwods. Silly, silly, fuckwods. You all suck the big one. <3

A single entry in Liz's journal has 45 fucking comments, all bitching at her or bitching at someone who bitched at her. First of all, Liz is my girl. Liz doesn't like drama. Confucious say man who give Liz drama get foot in ass.

No offense, Mike. ;D But you sure like to stir shit up, dick first.

ANYWAY. I locked myself in my room again, nearly the entire summer. It took Catherine a lot of convincing to get me out. I think I went to the mall like.. twice? Who knows.

Senior year started. Let's see.. I have..

Child Development 1.
Creative Writing.
Psychology.
Philosophy.
Intro to programming with Java/HTML.
Gym 2.

And second semester, it'll look something like this..

Entrepreneurship.
Creative Writing.
Psychology.
Advanced Programming with Java/ Honors.
Fashion Design.
Gym 2.

Yay me. Can't wait to get out of here. I want to accomplish one of two things.

California or Chicago. We'll see. I'm kind of just going to wing it, see what happens, as crazy and fucking stupid as that may sound.

Me and Ryan are doing good [ knock on wood ]. 30 days until homecoming, and if I'm lucky, he'll be there with me. And if I'm even luckier, he won't pull an Irish jig on the dance floor.

Thilly thpic, jigs are for pure breeds. ;D

Peas.

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