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Hesitant [Apr. 25th, 2003|07:23 pm]
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Being less mobile and travelling on public transport has given me a new perspective on things, I think.

I'm used to just breezing my way through journeys. I walk fast, I'm confident in crowds and although I'm not built like the proverbial brick outhouse I was once described as looking like "a bit of a bruiser" so people generally don't barge into me. Because I'm careful not to throw my weight around and usually hold doors open for people and give up seats and so on, I don't see myself as one of the 'problem' people and I guess I assume I'm pretty average in my levels of confidence and so on.

But these last two days, hobbling around on this excuse for a foot, have given me a different perspective. Instead of plunging along pavements and through crowded ticket halls in an arrow-straight line, safe in the knowledge I could dodge anyone who didn't dodge me first, I've been crawling along as people have flooded past and around me in a great tide. I've shied away from anyone who's even looked like they might come close to treading on my foot. I've had to pick my route with care. Someone - a young black businessman - offered me his seat on a bus. I've even caught people watching my limp with curious sympathy, then jerking their eyes away from me when I spot them. In short, all my able-bodied-male-in-the-prime-of-his-life confidence has evaporated.

Is this what it's like to be elderly? Is this what it's like to be disabled?

I don't think I like it much.
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[User Picture]From: [info]stalkerofursoul
2003-04-25 12:14 pm (UTC)

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old sux0r..... i dont look forward to getting past twenty. bwaha.
[User Picture]From: [info]_random_
2003-04-25 12:49 pm (UTC)

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Much more like that and you won't make it past 20... they have hitmen in Texas, right?
[User Picture]From: [info]stalkerofursoul
2003-04-25 01:20 pm (UTC)

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eep! for the right amount of money id do the job myself!
[User Picture]From: [info]bleachedlovebuz
2003-04-25 02:02 pm (UTC)

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hope ur foot gets better really soon =)

lol at "proverbial brick outhouse"
[User Picture]From: [info]samphirette
2003-04-25 03:35 pm (UTC)

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I've been crawling along as people have flooded past and around me in a great tide. I've shied away from anyone who's even looked like they might come close to treading on my foot. I've had to pick my route with care.

Picking a route with care is a very difficult thing. I'm generally ok if I can walk the same pace, but it can be a struggle when someone suddenly steps into your on coming path further up as you know you can't auto-jump out of their way. Very often in crowded places I have to physically stand still and let people pass around me.

On previous accounts I've had children holding their mother's hand foolishly try to walk between me & my crutch. Earlier in the week I went to a BHMonday market and my crutch was swept away by several bagcarriers which has made my leg even gippier this week *grrr*

Related matters also frustrate me - I can't carry an umbrella plus shopping bags so I do get very peeved when ladies pull out their brollies and aim them straight for your head when you can't suddenly duck out of the way (normally in drizzly weather too!!!) If I'm ok with getting slightly wet, why do other people have to be so stupid.

I think that's enough venting!

[User Picture]From: [info]_random_
2003-04-25 04:45 pm (UTC)

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I was wondering what your take on this would be and looking forward to reading it...
[User Picture]From: [info]samphirette
2003-04-25 05:02 pm (UTC)

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Strangely my doctor makes me laugh has he's asked on occassions why I don't try going out with a walking stick. I have tried this but the stick is easier to swipe away in crowds and you can't take as much weight off when you are walking. The theory that people will avoid people with sticks/crutches isn't very good in a practical world :(

I guess it must be harder for you with nothing to back up the foot ?? People are probably less likely to notice that you are injured whilst they go about their business.
[User Picture]From: [info]_random_
2003-04-28 03:25 am (UTC)

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Yeah... when I'm standing still (ie waiting on a train platform) there's nothing to show I have anything wrong, so I get crowded.
From: (Anonymous)
2003-04-26 08:03 am (UTC)

Cheery News!

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I hope this takes your mind off your bad foot! You may soon be covered from head to foot with large itchy red spots if you have not already had chicken pox. Your second cousin Robert when down with it two days ago, making Easter Saturday part of his incubation period! Enjoy!
[User Picture]From: [info]_random_
2003-04-28 03:26 am (UTC)

Re: Cheery News!

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We've both had it, mercifully...