urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:_paganistic_ Stephanie glisteningfaerie@aol.com Stephanie 2002-01-12T06:53:27Z urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:_paganistic_:829 2002-01-11T22:51:00 2002-01-12T06:53:27Z 2002-01-12T06:53:27Z look at this cool ass icon!!! isnt it nifty?? this is the main reason i picked marilyn. i love the music.. but the icon scares me.. except this one!!!!<br />steponme urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:_paganistic_:674 2002-01-11T19:41:00 2002-01-12T03:51:07Z 2002-01-12T03:51:07Z im going to miss him so much. urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:_paganistic_:506 2002-01-10T12:27:00 2002-01-10T20:40:30Z 2002-01-10T20:40:30Z i dont know what im feeling.. maybe you can tell me.. ok.. i like this guy.. maybe like isnt enough.. but ohh well.. you get it.. and it seems as if whenever i try to talk to him he ignores me.. it sux. ok.. i tried iming him today... and he didnt respond.. and i know it was him.. and i tried calling yesterday.. but no answer.. as always when its me.. gosh i hate this. he says he likes me then he dodges any contact with me.. and hes leaving which is the worst part.. and i probably wont get to see him before he leaves.. gosh.. fuck the army.. they break too many people up! i just met him.. and im totally infatuated by him... worst thing.. he couldnt give a rats ass about me at all i dont think.. i just wish i could tak to him.. but im afraid to cause of the age difference.. id feel like a total retard if he says he doesnt care.. theres 6 years age difference there.. just to let you know.. im not telling you how old i am.. cause i hate the reacion people get.. but ill tell you think.. its illegal. but its weird with him.. like last weekend had to be the greatest for me.. the worst for him.. it was great for me cause we got to talk and i got to see him when i woke up... he was right beside me.. and thats the greatest feeling for me. it sucked for him cause he got jiped out of 120$ and his grandmother died (i think thats who died) and that really hurt him.. i tried to talk to him about it.. but he doesnt seem to want to talk to me.. this whole situation just sux.. and i know that this isnt one of my lil puppy love things cause i usually pick out things i dont like about someone then i get over them.. but with him its like all those lil annoying or odd things are cute.. and about every night this week before ive gone to bed.. i cried cause i didnt get to see him that day.. he thinks hell get hurt and ill get hurt.. but he has to understand that im not afraid of that.. for as Shakespear said "it is better to have loved and faced heartbreak then to have never loved at all" this is my way of thinking.. but he thinks if he just ignores me then he wont get hurt.. but if he does have feeling for me he will get hurt.. probably worse.. cause he wont have the memories to lok back on... so in conclusion.. this whole thing sux.. and i jsut wanted to say something.. to the person that will beleft unnamed.. <br />I LOVE YOU! please see that... and work on it.. or it may be too late... and that would thuroughly suck ass<br />crying dryly,<br />stephanie