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tomorrow [06 Jan 2009|08:18pm]

bettyford
i am leaving town and the state.

i want you to leave everything where you found it. the next time you see me you will be glad you did.
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Anyone like chai tea? [06 Jan 2009|01:42pm]

the_coffee_shop

[bleueyedblonde]
Occasionally I'll get emails from Starbucks, and I thought I'd share this offer with the community:

free samples )
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[05 Jan 2009|11:48pm]

lifeisuseless
I feel foreign in Deadjournal land, these days.

I'm moving to Guatemala on Feb 1st. Upon doing so, I intend on getting my life together. I'm not sure about how going to Guatemala will help me get anything in order, but my logic is that if I actually have time to clear my head then there can be no wrong doing.

New Poems.
--
Defeat

Oh saccharine stain of Marigold,
who gleams upon the scales
of repletion, may your best defense
remain your ignorance,

From the beginning-
you clenched
to the strings of other
bleary-eyed good doers
a marionette,
tearing among your seams

Grasp the wholes of eternity,
unwarranted- time has it's faults
find solace in your spill downward-
evade the listless chasm-
the dread
from which you'll never escape
again

For I can swing many a starless night
for me, you've lost your glow,
abiding by my own dusty torches
in a pride
you will never know.
---

Frail

Benevolence scatters,
like the jagged edges
of snowflake ends

where winter meets
the great face
of awkward onlookers,
with a tinge and hello

just one flurry
at a time
becomes a dozen
in a fury

and maybe if we collect
enough snow stars
weave our little pieces
of December flesh
with a thread
of permafrost

We can dance in choas
in our snowskirts

still fresh of frozen dirt
sifting beneath our steel boots
and untamed ice skates

A conception
to dream-
a sanction
of Wintry synnergy
free
of hibernation and
sleep

the solemn place
from where Mother Earth
is now appeased.
---

Neuroticism, Living

It seems
all I've ever known
is written outside
my life's greater script.

Death is trivial
like brushing one's teeth
meaningless and
coinicidental.
All I've got going
for me
is one more trip.

A trip
which beams
the universe
my body permeated
by illusory numbness
because
numbness is almost
deafening

as love!
the kind
where kisses
are falsified
and the feelings
are never as good
as the fucking

I cannot quarrel
with Lust.
like an unamorous knight
forced against the floor
with a sword to my neck
because this is as close,
and as good
as I'll ever get.

May love be faithless
because faith
is the false hope
that holds
My fingers spackled
together
begging
for something
better, better.

Betterment
is delusive;
a phantasm for which
I strive
so neuroticism
doesn't sour me whole
and alive.

Brave, Brave
like suicide
because God
forbid
there's a permanent
answer
to every formidable
insanity
and worry.
I choose to keep

I choose to be
as I must
before I turn to dust
By God let me live
for this is paradise
---

First Verse in Ugly

My life is not yours
and who is to say
it never was?

I am not the glamorous
spector
upon your speck of lifespan,

I can't play
godly superwoman
nor ailing messiah
all the time.
No, even the best of skins,
stick to me like acidic
plastic,
to my honery bones
in the sweltering heat.

and honey
I've got nothing
to show for my bloody glory
obtained
like an unwanted adversary.

I'll take blow
after
blow
if it means
you'll let me go
and I can be beautiful
like the unfeasible dreams
you've dashed
for me.

So dear God!
take this
grieving
straight out of me
this ruin was your doing
I was just a
late apology.
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Poem of the Week [05 Jan 2009|09:15pm]

the_coffee_shop

[goldenbabe]
Morning Specter
By Jari Thymian

These coffee beans,
crushed to small flecks,

forgot their former shape and texture,
but rise at daybreak to the glass observatory

seeing flashes of light
in geysers of hot water,

percolating, rising lively,
saying, "Wait, wait," wanting

to float in the spectrum,
stretch the wavelengths

before sinking, pulled by undertows,
to the filter for rejuvenation,

where color and character
sweep through porous membrane,

flavoring the warm ocean,
where they willingly surrender
to new vessels.
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Acceptance [05 Jan 2009|10:49am]

socalledhipster
[ mood | upset ]

The wind is blowing, blowing over the grass.
It shakes the willow catkins; the leaves shine silver.
Where are you going, wind? Far, far away
Over the hills, over the edge of the world.
Take me with you, wind, high over the sky.
I will go with you, I will be rabbit-of-the-wind,
Into the sky, the feathery sky and the rabbit.

The stream is running, running over the gravel,
Through the brooklime, the kingcups, the blue and gold of spring.
Where are you going, stream? Far, far away
Beyond the heather, sliding away all night.
Take me with you, stream, away in the starlight.
I will go with you, I will be rabbit-of-the-stream,
Down through the water, the green water and the rabbit.

In autumn the leaves come blowing, yellow and brown.
They rustle in the ditches, they tug and hang on the hedge.
Where are you going, leaves? Far, far away
Into the earth we go, with the rain and the berries.
Take me, leaves, O take me on your dark journey.
I will go with you, I will be rabbit-of-the-leaves,
In the deep places of the earth, the earth and the rabbit.

Frith lies in the evening sky. The clouds are red about him.
I am here, Lord Frith, I am running through the long grass.
O take me with you, dropping behind the woods,
Far away, to the heart of light, the silence.
For I am ready to give you my breath, my life,
The shining circle of the sun, the sun and the rabbit.

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[04 Jan 2009|11:22pm]

_alcyone_
[ mood | chipper ]

damn, i feel good.

tired, though. exhausted, actually, though heavens know i havent moved much today.
but that many hours of concentrating on not dropping 200lb.s of cardboard from 30ft up, while maneuvering 36"x39" packages into a 38"x40" space, or not hitting ANYTHING or ANYONE with the 6,000lb 4-pronged steel machine takes a toll on a persons head, you know.
it also requires alot of sitting, with which i have grown quite exasperated.

o, well. "weekend" now, huzzah!

i feel good.

i want to change myself, immediately, but am resigned to buying yet more hair dye online & waiting for a weekday off to schedule a new tattoo.

o yeah, & hit the bank for the first time in a few weeks.

small changes:

im wearing red (not all black)

im sober after 11pm (very odd, but not bad)

i resisted cookies & brownies (mostly) & was happy with my salad dinner.
my body is in "bloat" mode, i think, & it makes me kindof frantic.

too cold to exercise outdoors, & i literally do not have time to go to the gym, much less the money or inclination. i hate being dissatisfied with my body, i wish it were irrelevant to me.
despite all my conscious & logical protests, some perverse, pervading voice insists that yes, ones weight is the root of all evils in ones life.

how irksome.

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des. [04 Jan 2009|10:30am]

add_me_pleez

[_______sadistic]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | alice in chains - am i inside ]

Name- Des.
Age- 23.
Location- Dana Point, CALIPORNIA.
Hobbies- tattooing, drawing, painting, airbrush, pinstripe, goldleaf, art, skateboarding, music, food.
Preferred Music- grunge, heavy metal, progressive metal, progressive 90s, punk, classic & southern rock, classical.
I won't add people who...- i'm not really that picky, just don't be some creepy weird person.

picture!!! )
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Like Cabbages and Kings [03 Jan 2009|11:36pm]

socalledhipster
[ mood | thoughtful ]
[ music | I'm Guessing There's a Pill for That~PlayRadioPlay! ]

I can’t begin to imagine what it must have been like to be the age I am now but to live in the United States during the year of 1968. Nowhere and no place in time was the death of a national identity and decades of ensuing strife more prevalent than during that one year. The madness of that one year was what caused the Weathermen to begin bombing buildings all over the United States. And if I had lived during that year, I probably would have joined them.

The year began with half a million kids shipped off to fight in Vietnam; half of them drafted, the majority pulled out of ghettos as attending University or having a “selective job” was a main source for deferment. By the end of January, the Tet offensive surprised American troops and bombarded them for nine months in half built forts surrounded by an unfamiliar jungle. On March 16th, five hundred civilians were shot and dumped into ditches for being communist sympathizers in My Lai. On April 4th, Martin Luther King was shot in the face after giving his “I've been around the mountain top” speech. On June 5th, Robert Kennedy was shot in the face after winning the California primary. On August 29th with clouds of tear gas still clouding the air, Hubert Humphrey wins the Democratic presidential nomination even though 80% of primary votes went towards anti-war candidates. On November 5th, facing an election against pro-segregationist George Wallace and war apologist Hubert Humphrey; Richard Nixon won the American election. The monthly average for troops killed in Vietnam rose from 770 in 1967 to 1200 and everything after that- as they say, is history.

The year of 1968 is in many ways like 2008: massive political realignment, a gruelling primary contest, an unending proxy war engulfing a generation, another war over an abstraction with social division and strife threatening to unravel an entire country. But rather than a vote out of fear, what we have here is a vote out of hope.

Now, I’m professional cynic at heart. I know Obama is just another politician; his vote on FISA, his half-hearted position on gay marriage, and his threats against Pakistan belies his moderate-to-deflect-criticism mindset over true independence. But when the history is so obvious and ridden with mistakes, it sometimes seems we are often doomed to repeat the same ones over and over.

Yet history cannot be denied. Forty-five years after segregation ended, forty-four years after the last restrictions on African-Americans voting ended, twenty years after Bush Sr’s Willie Horton ad, eighteen years after Jesse Helm’s Hands ad, and three years after Hurricane Katrina: Barack Obama has been elected President. And all it took was another endless war and economic catastrophe.

The Rolling Stone- in their usual over-the-top leftist way, made the argument that any rejection of Obama is nothing short of a rejection of black America itself. Having not embraced radicalism, having not been overly negative and blame “whitey” for all problems, having been at the top of his class at Harvard Law, the (first black) editor of the Harvard Law Review, and all done while pulling himself up from the bootstraps of a single-parent family; Obama has surpassed not only the expectations and demands of White America (nevermind how a white C minus student has been President for eight years) but proven the ability to build broad coalitions across racial, economic, and even ideological lines.

What the election in 1968 failed to do has finally been achieved. Where the argument of they “don’t think the way we do” has finally been put to rest. Obama won, that was expected. But by winning or at the very least getting 49% in North Carolina, Missouri, Indiana, and Virginia- four states that have rarely if ever went to the Democrats since the passage of the Civil Rights Act in 1964, has irrevocably altered the face of what we expect the American leader to be. Revealing the truth that for better or worst, we are bound together. Either in a warming embrace or in a clawing grip as the ones at bottom pulls the water closer to your head. The opportunity to end an unjust, senseless war fought by kids robbed of a future and to restore faith in a system tarnished by greed and corruption beyond scandal.

Yet as one peak towards societal harmony is reached, rather than the bar being lowered it is again raised. Proposition 8 in California- which sought not just to ban gay marriage but to nullify fifty-thousand existing marriages, has passed by the same margin that elected Barack Obama. Another referendum made adoption of abandoned children by gay couples illegal. A milestone was reached on November fourth yet more loom ahead and still we lack leaders, still we lack those chosen few to speak for the voiceless, those of the 80% who dare to protect the 20%.

We don’t know how Obama will stand the test of time but we do know of Presidents who signed their own political death sentence in pursuit of eliminating racism from our laws, we know of Presidents who order the military to guard terrified minority kids to school from angry hateful mobs, and we know of Presidents willing to unify their country to end an injustice at all costs. We can only hope that he’ll be worthy of them but then again, it has been a while since it’s been safe to hope.

So, here's a bottle of burgandy and a toast to you, 2009, whatever future you may hold.

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[02 Jan 2009|11:19pm]

the_coffee_shop

[raindownonme]
Survey Day

1. How did you ring in the new year?
Watching fireworks downtown!

2. Did you make a New Years resolution?
Not exactly a concrete one

3. If yes to the last what was it? If no why not?
Be in a better mood, appreciate things more

4. Did you ring in the New Year how you wanted to?
actually, yes

5. What do you hope for in the new year?
clarity, local foods :D
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"And you better not be feeling sorry for yourself!!!!" [02 Jan 2009|06:27pm]

antoj
[ mood | cynical ]

What would you say the definition of "Feeling sorry for yourself" is?

Because as it is defined to me, it means getting your feelings hurt.

So please excuse me while I learn to never get my feelings hurt.

Oh wait here I am "feeling sorry for myself" again.

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Survey of the Week [02 Jan 2009|12:00pm]

the_coffee_shop

[nesharfm]
Survey Day

1. How did you ring in the new year? I stayed home so I didn't do much- Rich was at work, but came home to watch the ball drop with me.

2. Did you make a New Years resolution? Not really...

3. If yes to the last what was it? If no why not? I plan to just keep living, nothing more, nothing less.. do the best I can. right?

4. Did you ring in the New Year how you wanted to? I'd have rather had Rich home with me, but sure.

5. What do you hope for in the new year? Have less bills
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was it as good for you as it was for me? [01 Jan 2009|10:31pm]

_alcyone_
[ mood | far & away ]
[ music | medley ]

first line of first entry from every month; you know the drill. intriguing? perhaps.
read on to find out for yerself....

january: enjoy... or not, or as you will... i enjoyed taking them.

february: "stood up" for the second night in a row, but thats not so bad.
someone will text me, sometime....

march: thank you, iggy pop, for telling it so well

april:didnt go to the bondage ball; i ended up walking around falling in love with LA for a few hours, then returned to the arms and porch of the stranger and got drunk. (and have, in fact, done so every night since then)

may: *BIG PICS* sorry, not feeling very articulate, but loving these pics.
i am in an awesome mood today, perma-grin and all. no reason to think of, just... excited, i guess.

june: gorgeous sunny day here; i went for a long walk but i still feel like im wasting the day indoors.
not like im doing anything interesting or useful, mind you...

july: i know some of what drifts across the depths of my soul
& perversely, i do not want you to know what drifts there.

august: grr.
cake & ice cream in the fridge.
bagels (i ♥ a good bagel)
im not one for temptaion.

september: it probably shouldnt be such a toss-up whether i should go for a walk on this lovely rainy day... or start drinking an hour before noon.
id really like some rum.

october: work sucks. weather is lovely. life is good. enjoying a good book. family sanguine.
yesterday lover & i had chinese for lunch & my fortune cookie read: Love is like War : easy to begin, difficult to end. he smiled that smile & agreed.

november: jesus christ in drag (and i do mean that). i didnt realise i understood these lyrics so well!
nevertheless, as usual, its hole that im humming 5hrs before a dawn-to-dark shift...

december: i have fallen in LOVE with Nick Cave. i finally get what NME & MOJO & Q were going on about, haha.
♥ thank bog & all his angels for limewire ♥

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now dance, fucker, dance [01 Jan 2009|09:21pm]

_alcyone_
[ mood | bouncy ]
[ music | you're gonna go far, kid - the offspring ♥ ]

ye gods, i cant stop DANCING

(its a good thing)

spent my new years eve not wallflowering at a goth club in philadelphia as planned, not at the youngest bar in town as backup-planned, but playing scrabble in the living room with liliana, drinking 99oranges with cranberry ginger ale & noshing on tacos & spanish rice in the kitchen.

good, good, good time.

shopping for a camera since, jaysus, you know i cant live happily without one. have my blind little heart set on an olympus stylus 850, for one feature which i deem absolutely necessary: it calls itself "shatterproof", & i am a fumbling, flighty, & broad-gesturing girl.

once i have a camera with which to judge my fascinating self, we'll move on to self-loathing & perhaps - this is a long shot - self-improvement. it is a new year, after all. i started my day by taking a thorough shower & finally taking all my empty bottles to the recycling center & my unwanted clothes to the salvation army.
(unfortunately, mom noticed the oversized sweater that she bought me for christmas poking out of the bag, & though i apologised & brought it home, tags & all, she is no longer on speaking terms with her gauche daughter.)


O! found some wonderful engrossing books today, that always makes me very happy. had a coupon for $5 off at the bookstore, so bought another copy of lusted-after twilight. i bought a copy a few weeks ago, but it went missing after a strange drunken night... apparently never-to-be-seen-again, & so replaced. la, i cant wait to get into it again!

work 36hrs in the next three days - not so fun, but i suppose its necessary.

turn the music up, top off my glass, & ill dance all night alone in the dark of my bedroom, baby

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Video Game Meme and New Years Meme [01 Jan 2009|05:33pm]

antoj
[ mood | nauseated ]

Buh... I have another migrane and I took two "EXTRA STRENGTH" Excedrin and it didn't do anything. FFFF. This sucks, I don't mind the headache so much but I hate how it makes me feel super nauseated. I wonder if it's because I've been dining on junk food recently... ugh imma go eat a salad. :[

Video Game meme )

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

New Years meme )

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HAPPY NATIONAL HANG OVER DAY. [01 Jan 2009|08:04pm]

lifeisuseless
Indeed, another National Hang Over Day is upon us.

http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&VideoID=49481026

Have a fine '09, guys.

(We set a mircowave on fire)
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[01 Jan 2009|01:12pm]

bleueyedblonde
I am so unmotivated to update properly. :(
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[01 Jan 2009|11:14am]

the_coffee_shop

[bleueyedblonde]
Just wanted to say that I got a french press for Christmas...

and it is freakin' awesome!!! =D

Hope everyone's holidays went well.

I'll leave you with a few funny images )
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[01 Jan 2009|10:58am]

bleueyedblonde
I made this survey in 2004 )
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Happy New Year [01 Jan 2009|08:56am]

the_coffee_shop

[goldenbabe]

glitter-graphics.com


glitter-graphics.com


glitter-graphics.com
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Another pet peeve. [31 Dec 2008|07:35pm]

antoj
[ mood | aggravated ]

People going into my room while I'm not there and doing something. Like opening my window, or sitting on my bed or w/e.

I went into my room to find my window open. Why?

I asked her and she said it was cuz it was "sunny" today (Oh yes, fog is so sunny you guys.) even though my room =/= the house at all, ever. It might shine some light INTOMYROOM but nowhere else, so why do you need to open *MY* window? And my bed blocks 90% of the window ANYWAY. There is no point in opening it if you can't even see it.

Plus I hate it because she'll just go in there and muck everything up. Like open the window, or sleep in my bed (LOL!11!) and throw shit around my room AND NOT PUT IT BACK.

Hense I come home at 7:30 to find my window open WIDE FUCKING OPEN. I *HATE* my window being open at night because you can see clear as day into it at night and from like ALL THE WAY across the street where like druggies and shit hang out sometimes.

YES I WANT THOSE PEOPEL TO SEE INTO MY ROOM AT NIGHT.

PLEASE PUT THINGS BACK WHEN YOU AREN'T USING THEM.

ALSO, YOUR ROOM IS ACROSS THE HALL, PLEASE DO NOT TOUCH MY THINGS.

K THANKS.

Of course I can't even say of this to her because then I'll activate rage mode (: yay.

Also it smells like a fucking campfire in here because my door was left wide open when there was a fire when I already said I DON'T LIKE MY DOOR BEING OPEN WITH A FIRE because our fire place is busted or something and shit tons of smoke goes into the house and it makes my eyes burn hardcore. Also I don't like smelling ashtrays in my room. I get enough of this all summer long when the entire state of california is on fire. Seriously, either burn some wood that doesn't smell like destruction or clean out the fireplace so it isn't destroying my lungs and eyes.

Oh but wait, of course I can't expect anything because it's not my house. c_c; grrr.

and the neighbors parked all retarded so when i come home tonight after the party im gonnan have to park across the street and hope my windshield doesn't get smashed in. CUZ WE ALL KNOW I CAN AFFORD THAT.

lol k w/e.

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