From the Depths of My Mind...

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 04:24:25 GMT

"The wheel of time turns, and ages come and pass, leaving memories that become legend. Legend fades to myth, and even myth is long forgotten when the age that gave it birth comes again. In one age called the third by some, an age yet to come, and yet an age long past, a wind rises in the mountains. There are neither beginnings nor endings to the turning of the wheel of time. But this was a beginning."
- Robert Jordan

Sun, 31 Oct 2004 18:26:23 GMT

haven't updated in a while..

i mostly update in my other journal...so yeah. plus, i've been busy with the musical and what-not.

anyone want to go see it? it's $7 a ticket, and you can buy at the door if you'd like.

that's all i got.

GO BUY IT NOW!

Wed, 20 Oct 2004 18:29:53 GMT

smile like you mean it!

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 02:16:55 GMT

woke up this morning around 10:30...then started freaking out, cuz i thought we had rehearsals. i don't think we did, and if so, i obviously didn't go. anyways- saw that Megan called me, so i called her back. we talked for about an hour. yeah...i kept MENTIONING stuff...and yeah...shut up. lol. I DO NOT, MEGAN. I DON'T! at least, i don't think i do...? i dunno...SHUT UP. lmao.

did some laundry, filled out my application for Tennessee, and then ate my left-overs from Outback Steakhouse. mmmm. STEAK! lol.

tomorrow, i believe that we have rehearsals from 7-9pm. yes, i am right. -thumbs up-

jena called me last night when i was oot and aboot, and when i called her back, she didn't answer. i dunno...it's kinda weird. she disappears for a while, and then comes around when she's bored, or so it seems. Lea agrees with me on that. it sucks, cuz she claimed to be my "best friend" but hasn't been around when i really need her. -sigh- well, that's kinda depressing.

i'm taking my Senior pictures tomorrow. well, the yearbook pictures. i'm getting the nice pictures done by my cousin on Friday. i'm kinda not looking forward to it, cuz i hate my picture being taken, cuz i never look good in pictures. and, my mom doesn't want to get the touch-ups where they take my braces off and what-not. that would be weird though, seeing me with no braces. i've had them for about 3 years now. wow.

i was watching "SNL: Best Of Chris Kattan" earlier. i love him. when he plays Mango and the brothers who dance for the celebrities and make the little shirts and everything...hahaha! yeah, no one has no idea what i'm talking about. lol. i watch WAY too much TV i think.

i don't feel like writing anymore. meh.

and...i'm out...:)

kimbobo

Mon, 04 Oct 2004 22:04:30 GMT

this here is Kimbobo.

enough said.

the pictures say the rest.

enjoy! :)

Kimbo and Mike. :)

Her stripper pose...

...and OFF TO WORK!

"Check me out, fo! i got CDS!"

and last, but certainly not least...SPONGEBOB!

i love cameras. :)

and...i'm out...:D

whoring

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 22:41:54 GMT

i have to spread the word of thsi journal community.

wanna know more about it? then just check it out.

or
monstrosity

i have rehearsal tonight around 7. should be alright.

i saw Karczewski after school today, and he gave me my reccomendation letter. it's awesome. haven't seen him in a while, so it was good to see him.

that's all i got for now. i'm gonna go and do my homework or something.

and...i'm out...:P

-yawn-

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 21:06:46 GMT

didn't go to school today. didn't feel well. yep.

last night was our first rehearsal. it was ok, i guess. so, first i was Marty, then he switched me to Frenchy. i hope he makes up his mind and keeps me at one. lol. tomorrow is our second rehearsal, and yeah. should be alright.

saturday is Melissa's birfday, and also homecoming. well, i'm not going to homecoming because i forgot to buy a ticket, and i didn't get a dress or shoes yet. so oh well. but i am going to Prom. after homecoming, everyone wanted me to hang out with them, but i'm not sure because Melissa wanted to hang out too. i'll probably end up going with her since it's her birthday and all. plus, i haven't had a chance to hang out with her much, since she started working and i started getting involved more with school.

blah blah blah blah blah.

reading a new book. it's a ghost story that's supposed ot be true. i only got to the 2nd page, though, cuz i always end up falling asleep. i'm reading that and "Dead Man Walking." i've seen the movie, and i've already read that book, so yeah. kinda boring.

finally heard from Jena. she's been in the city all of last week. still didn't break up with Brad. i dunno what's going on with her other than that. :\

um...there's nothing really more for me to say right now. i have to get busy with homework. i have a few projects due this week. yep.

and...i'm out...

-sigh-

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 22:49:35 GMT

(a little late, i know...but...)
Bears: 21
Greenbay: 10
That kick ass game! i called my Aunt Pat in Wisconsin that day to let ker know. yep, she was pissed. -shrugs- ah, well, who cares.

so, call backs were yesterday at about 5:15. today, he was supposed to put the list of characters up to see who was gonna be who, but now he's gonna wait until tomorrow. THE ANTICIPATION. i swear, if i have to wait ONE MORE friggin' day...ugh. i hope i got a good part. -crosses fingers-

i went to go see "Cellular" with Kimbo, Albo, and Margarita on Friday. that movie was awesome. and the guy who was in it was fine...with his shirt ON, that is. weird, eh? haha, but yeah. still a great movie. DAMN DIRTY COPS! -shakes fist at them-

going to work in a few. -yawn-

ended up going to Holsey's house yesterday to watch them play. he is awesome at the drums. yeah, that's all i got on that bit.

saw Nick today after school with Alex. they were on their way to go jam. i was gonna go, but yeah, didn't feel like it.

i'm gonna go...not really sure what else to put in here, so yeah. leaving now.

and...i'm out...:|

1/2 day...

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 17:26:01 GMT

whoo...thank goodness for getting out early.

Stephen, Bethany, Dan, some other kid (sorry, can't remember your name!), and i went to burger king 4th period. we were supposed to go to pizza hut, but no one wanted to go really. -shrugs-

Lea and i sat next to each other in the auditorium for the assembly, and we were making fun of Dean Barnes. (that hooker!) haha...it was fun.

i have call backs tonight at 5:15, but i'm gonna get there early so i can help Karlina with Rizzo's song. Karlina is such a sweety. Tiffany got called back too, so i'm gonna be glad to see her there tonight. her brother Chris is bad ass on the guitar.

Levi finally came back to school after his 10 day suspension. he got fined $140 (or something like that) for that one sign he put up on the new building. he wanted me to go over to Holsey's house to watch them play, but obviously i didn't go. Alex left with his friend Keith to drop his shit off at his house and then they were heading over there. oh well.

haven't heard from Jena in a few days. not since Friday.

yesterday, Melissa and i hung out for a little bit. she was always talking about how she was friends with this one guy named Robert. well, i had no idea who she was talking about, until last night. i found a pic of him in the yearbook, and i found out he was the kid that used ot jump on everyone's back at school, and he used to go skating. so yeah, small frickin' world.

and...i'm a vegetarian now. no, for real. i am. weird, huh?

that's all i got.

and...i'm out...:)

-sneezes-

Sun, 19 Sep 2004 15:46:06 GMT

Laura has a little cold today. same one i've had last week. GREAT.

haven't updated in a while...mainly because i haven't been online in while. i've been so busy with school, having a shit-load of homework and what-not. plus, i've been auditioning. :)

so, monday was the auditions, and i danced and sang. Zigrossi gave me a complement, which i guess he never does, and it's a possibility i could get the lead. i have no idea what part i want though. i can either be the prude who turns into a whore in the end, the whore, the other whore who digs older guys, the mousy whore, the fat whore, or the annoying cheerleader. hm. so, whatever i get, i'll live with i guess. well, Friday was "call-backs" and all of us had to do a reading. tomorrow, on his board outside his room, he's going to have a list of people's names that he wants to come back and sing certain songs to see which part would be best for them. so i'm kinda nervous all over again. oh well, i'll live.

i'm getting A's in a lot of my classes. hella-awesome.

Friday, around midnight, John came over. we sat on my front porch and talked for the longest time...or so it seemed. there was a lot that i didn't know about him...and he learned a few things about me too. he's such a sweetie. and NO...I'M NOT GOING TO GO OUT WITH HIM. one, because he's still going out with Kerri, and i'm not one to break a person up with their girlfriend on purpose. and 2: i think that my old boyfriends ruined the whole dating thing for me. having someone who whined a lot and was so insecure and somewhat abusive was kinda annoying. and then, there's the stalker. and we must not forget all of the other guys who were just plain assholes. so yeah, i'm fine being alone for now.

that's all i got for now. i'm gonna go and get dressed.

and...i'm out...

some pics and what-not...

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 20:56:44 GMT

lookit me...putting pics in here. yeah...i'm THAT fucking bored.

me before i got my hair cut and what-not.

me with no makeup, after my hair cut...but before i highlighted it.
(and i don't have a pic of my hair now...cuz my camera is being gay...so yeah...live with it.)

eyeballs!

Albo with my printer.

Kinda dark...but it's my brother with Jena picking his nose.

and that's is for now, unless i can scrounge up some better ones...-shrugs-

and on about my day. :)

going to babysit tonight at Roger's. should be interesting. they're going clubbing because it's Shannon's birthday, and Ashlee is in town too.

John might stop over there...maybe. :)

not really sure what else to say...so yeah, i'm gonna go.

and...i'm out...:D

80's stuff now...

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 22:16:43 GMT

"When Doves Cry" (by Prince)
How could you just leave me standing,
Alone in a world so cold?
Maybe you're just too demanding.
Maybe I'm just like my father--too bold.
Maybe you're just like my mother.
She's never satisfied.
Why do we scream at each other?
This is what it sounds like,
When doves cry.

Which 80's Song Fits You?
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You're Labyrinth. You dig Jim Henson and muppets
are your friends.

Which 80's movie are you??
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You are a Gremlin

What 80's idol are you?
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You are Ferris Beuller. You bastard! Everyone
want's to be Ferris. Now go back and answer the
questions properly.

Which 80's Movie Character Are you?
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You are The Goonies! This is a really big classic,
and consider yourself as part of the gang and
adventurous if you get this one.

What 80's Movie Are You?
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some quizzes...for boredom...

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 22:14:53 GMT

You have a free soul! As all the souls go, yours is
the most free-spirited and adventurous. You
like camping, hiking, or interaction with other
people. Your a social butterfly, but not
because of your style, but because of your
willingness to communicate with everyone. You
probably have close friends who can rely on you
because you always seem to know whats going on
in the world. You love music and are
free-spirited and someone fun to be around. A
born leader and great explorer-dont ever
change-the world needs more people like you.

What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
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You are a Siren. More adventurous than all with a
voice like no other you sit on warm rocks and
sing to the moon and sea. Yet sometimes
shipwrecks find you and raving men want you.
You are a bottle of talent and power. What the
unknown is you seek to find, and a lover. You
have the moon and stars as freinds. There are a
very few of you, what a rare find.

What kind of mermaid are you? (Gorgeous Pics)
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You're Element is Water. You are soft and serene at
most times but like Wind, you're scary when
you're mad. You probably have a talent of
singing and even your speaking voice is lovely.
You have an innocent type of beauty that makes
you look younger than you are and you like
close relationships with people.

What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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you enjoy dancing and music....you tend to be
rather cool headed... your an air elemental or
a faerie.

What elemental being are you?
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Your: Happy eyes! Your cheerfull, bright and always
want to try something new. Your inquisitive and
quite lovable. You have many friends and will
succseed in life.

What type of eyes do you have?
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Bright Eyes - Bowl of Oranges

Compassion and understanding rule your life -
seeing other people makes you happy, and at the
same time, you grasp the fact that life can't
be great all the time. After all, how would we
ever appreciate the sun if we never see the
rain? You have a subtle optimism that keeps
your head up in even the most dismal times,
which gives strength to those who witness it.
Life can never get the best of you, because
you've got the strength inside you to conquer
anything.

What's Your Theme Song?
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-cocks gun-

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 06:01:05 GMT

shoot me...and do it now!

been over at Melissa's for the past couple of nights. last night, we went to the pool hall with Triston, Shawn, Kim, and Ryan...and we saw Jose, John, Nick, and Jeff there. i had a great time, but Melissa didn't seem to. John ended up soming over here until about 5:30, and then we finally fell asleep around then.

did community service at my mom's work...and finished the project there.

tonight, we went to the pool hall with Jena and we saw Nick there. then Jena went and told him that i htought Jeff was cute...which was stupid because i knew that he had a girlfriend, and my saying that he's cute has nothing to do with wanting to go out with him...so i was kinda frustrated.

tomorrow is my mom and dad's anniversary. great.

i feel like shooting myself...or hiring someone to do it for me. -blinks-

i have so much shit going through my head right now...and no one to vent to. i mean, i know Melissa is here and everything, and that i can trust her...but i just...can't. i dunno...

-covers eyes- shoot me.

"There are worst things i could do..."

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 22:17:07 GMT

stayed after school today for thw musical workshop thing. then, i went to sign up for book club.

so what? i'm a nerd who likes to read. poop on you!

anyways...yeah. auditions for the musical start after labor day. i'm pumped! the musical this year is going to be Grease. :D i;m so excited!

i missed youth group yesterday, but i'm sure to go next week.

other than that, nothin' much goin on. been busy with school work.

speaking of school...WHERE THE HELL IS JENA??? she hasn't been in school since last wednesday.

yeah...

well, i need to type up this script for English, cuz we have to do a skit on Friday. so i'm gonna do that, and then Math homework.

farewell.

-yawn-

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 00:10:17 GMT

so...this week kinda sucked.

Monday: had to work, so i was unable to take Alex out to get her a birthday gift. so, i still feel bad about that because i don't know what to get her, and i think she's mad at me. mainly because i mentioned some rumor about Steve to her, and it's not like i BELIEVED it...i just thought i should tell her incase she hears it from someone else. i dunno.

Tuesday: Sickness. out with Tonsilitus. didn't work, but didn't feel good.

Wednesday: didn't have my gym shorts. got in trouble. had to work. then, i spent the rest of the night dying Melissa's hair, and got dye on my favorite Hurley shirt.

Thursday: Sick again. then, hurt my foot. didn't go to work.

Friday: realized i couldn't walk. my foot was looking extremely puffy. also noticed that when i tried to put my shoe on, i toes felt like someone was pulling them off. so, naturally, i went to the doctor later that day. realized that i broke my foot. GREAT.

Saturday: went to Aaron's 18th birthday party. yeah, it sucked. i feel so bad for him. Aunt Linda doesn't give him ANY freedom. after dinner at Smokey Bones, i went to babysit for Roger around 9. he didn't leave his house with Shannon until 10:45-ish. they came back an hour later. -blinks-

Sunday: did nothing but limp around. ate dinner, and went upstairs to clean up my bookcase and put my books away. started reagin "Red Dragon" by Thomas Harris.

i have to start a project for Law class that's due tomorrow. should be a breeze. i have to read a court case and discuss it tomorrow, and then i have to create or improve an existing law while following the 5 guidelines for writing a law, and then present it. i also have to write up my sociology paper, and then finish my scrapbook for English.

my throat hurts.

i'm gonna go and do those projects now...

and...i'm out...

new layout...?

Sat, 28 Aug 2004 19:06:36 GMT

i need to change my journal layout. i'm bored with this one, cuz it's been this way for so long. plus, i dunno, i feel like it?

well, i went to the doctor last night, and basically i broke 2 toes and part of my bone near the toes. and, it hurts like hell to walk on it. i get out of gym for about a week, and then i have to go to a follow-up exam and see where i go from there. i get an elevator key though for school. awesome.

today is my cousin Aaron's birthday. we're gonna go and eat at Smokey bones-something or other up near AMC. GREAT. he's 18 years old, and my aunt still treats him like her little boy. she doesn't let him do anything or see anyone, and is very overprotective of him. i swear, he's gonna grow up to be a serial killer. IT ALL STARTS WITH THE MOTHERS.

my grandpa is back in the hospital. my mom got a call this morning from Grandma Ruby (the drunk) and she said that grandpa was brought back there. ihs health has been going downhill. i really hope he's ok and pulls through. i already had one grandpa die this year, i don't want both of them gone. although, sometimes Grandpa does seem gone because of his Alzheimer's. -sigh- great, now i'm in a bad mood.

i'm gonna go and get dressed and ready to go. then, i'm gonna sit on my ass and watch "The Breakfast Club."

and...i'm out...

lookit me...all PEE'D off...

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 17:53:19 GMT

yeah, haven't had a good couple of days.

i was sick yesterday, and while i was at home, i broke my foot. so i missed 2 days of school in a row, and i'm mad. i don't like to be behind. i'm sure i'll catch up, but i freak out when it comes to school stuff.

i'm gonna go though...my foot hurts, i ahve to elevate it.

and...i'm out...

"lookit me, Ma!...i'm throwing up pea soup!"

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 22:57:06 GMT

well, that pisses me off...i had this long ass entry typed out, and my computer started going nuts. now, i have to start from scratch...and i have to hurry because "That 70's Show" is on, and i wanna go watch it...

so my dad went and bought me the 3-pack of the Exorcist 1, 2, and 3. i just wanted the first one, but whatever. it was weird watching it...when i was little, it wasn't that scary because i didn't really get it. but watching it the other night...i was in freak-out-mode. i dunno...maybe it's because i'm Catholic. -shrugs- lol.

well school officially pissed me off once again today. my schedule: still fucked up. my counselor told me to come in today to get it settled. well, in the mornings, you need a pass to come in earlier than the doors open. i went there right before classes started, around 8 or so, and some lady gave me this slip and told me to fill it out, to see if i'm important enough to call back. well, thank you very much. so, they never called me down. so i went down there 6a, and Bafia wasn't even there. -blinks- what a waste of walking around. i gave up, so i went to Subway with Kimbo and Alex, and then came home. oh well...i'm not going to classes that i shouldn't even have. what's the point?

Karczewski agreed to write me a letter of recommendation for college, so i'm excited about that at least. he said that he's make up some good lies to make me sound like a top-notch student. lol. nice.

i want to get the Yellowcard album. i really like their songs. i think i will this weekend.

Friday, i'm supposed to work, but i'm skipping out and going to a battle of the bands at the Channahon three river festival (i think that's what it's called). some local bands are playing there, and i haven't been to one of those in a long while. of course, i don't want to go by myself. anyone up for coming with? let me know...

shit...i missed "That 70's Show." well, that's disappointing. oh well...re-runs.

that's all i think i have to say for now. well, all that i can say for YOUR viewing pleasure...anything else i say that i'm thinking will drive people off the wall. yeah. shutup. i have to get ready for work anyways.

and...i'm out...:|

\m/

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 06:15:03 GMT

concert was pretty kick ass. my brother, Tracy, and one of her friends went with me. we were in the front...it was so awesome! Soil, TRUSTcompany, Static-X...i was so excited. and the best part was that the ladies got in FREEEEEEEEE! whooooo! not that many people showed up, surprisingly. maybe not many knew about it. or maybe they just don't like the bands that played. oh well, their loss. :) we came home kinda early though, cuz the concert was out early. hm. oh well. it was still kick ass.

i have to wait another 20 minutes before i wash my hair. i put highlights in it just a bit ago. earlier today, i shaved Alex's sides and trimmed his hair, and then i dyed parts of tracy's hair black. shit, i should start charging and do my own hair-cuttery bizznizz. lol. nah...'fraid not.

Alex was telling me how he wanted to go and see "Seed of Chucky." lol. he and Scott used to always watch the Child's Play movies at our old house, and i remember that i used to be afraid of them, but act like i wasn't, cuz i was trying to not be such a pussy. lol. now, this new one coming out looks corny as hell, but more than likely i'll end up seeing it. lol. oh, that and the new Exorcist movie. i know it won't be as good as the first one (cuz none of the other sequels were), but still. i'm up for a cheesy scary movie anyday. :)

i saw my grandpa today. we sat outside with him, and he basically sat there while Aunt Linda and my mom talked to one another. nice. well, i talked with him. i guess that his diabetes got worse, and they're starting to give him shots now...which isn't good. he has an infection in his foot, from poor circulation, so i dunno...we always worry about his health stuff, on top of the fact that he has Alzheimer's.

grandma Ruby called Saturday, and when my mom picked up she was like "oh, are you at home?" -blinks- yeah, she must have been drunk. she backed into the fence again in her loud ass '80 jeep, and the back window busted and everything. yet, she didn't get charged, and her liscense WASN'T taken away...i don't get it.

i am so up for watching the "Exorcist" right now, but we don't have it. Josh used to when he lived here, but my dad doesn't own it. so, when i get a chance, i'm gonna go out and buy it. yep.

i think i'm gonna go and wash out my hair...and then watch "Labyrinth" or something. \m/DAVID BOWIE!\M/

and...i'm out...:P

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 22:29:03 GMT

leaving for the concert.

An excerpt from "The House" by Bentley Little:

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 18:24:15 GMT

New York:

Shelly emerged form the bathroom and glanced over at Sam on the bed. He looked up from his magazine, smiled warmly at her, and she turned away. He was getting Maudlin as he grew olderand it was something that had begun to irritate her. He cried now in movies--formulaicm simplisticm emotionally manipulative movies that were transparent in their sentimentality even to her--and it was annoying to hear his light occasional sniffles next to her, to see his finger whipe wetness from the corners of his eyes. He had not cried when David died, nor when his own parents passed on, yet he was now shedding tears for not particularly well-drawn fictional characters artificially embroiled in embarrassingly contrived plots.

She wondered sometimes why she had married him.

Shaking her head, Shelly walked over to the dresser, picked up her brush and--

There was another face in the mirror.

She blinked, closed her eyes. Looked away, looked back. But the face was still there, an ancient hag with impossibly wrinkled parchment skin, dark eyes narrowed into an evil slit, a hard cruel smile on a nearly lipless mouth.

Mary Worth.

Shelly backed up, all the saliva in her mouth suddenly gone, but she could not look away. She could see a reversed image of the bedroom in the mirror, Sam sitting up, leaning against the headboard, reading his magazine. In the foreground was the face, just on the other side of the mirrored dresser, staring back at her with malevolent intensity. She'd thought at first that it was unattatched to a body, but the longer she looked the more she saw, and she could now make out hunched shoulders beneath a black robe, although she could not say whether the body had been there all along or had materialized before her eyes.

Mary Worth.

It was exactly the face she had expected to see all those years ago, when she and her sisters and her friends had had sleepovers and had played those nighttime party games indulged in by every schoolgirl in America. "Mary Worth" had been their favorite, and they had dutifully taken turns standing before the mirror with their eyes closed repeating "Mary Worth, Mary Worth, Mary Worth..." The story was that if you said her name a hundred times, she would appear. None of them had ever been brave enough to make it to a hundred, chickening out and running squealing back to their beds and sleeping bags somewhere around forty or forty-five, and she knew that herself had always purposely kept it under fifty, no matter what she told her sisters and her friends, because that, too, seems a magical number and she'd been afraid that Mary Worth might have been partially present by that point and she did not want to see her at all.

Shelly could not remember who had initially taught her the ritual or where she had first learned it, and she cound not recall ever having seen a picture of Mary Worth or ever haveing the hag described to her. All she'd known was that Mary Worth was ancient and utterly terrifying.

But she realized now that the face in the mirror was exactly how she'd pictured Mary Worth in her mind.

Shelly stared into the mirror, blinked.

Where was her reflection?

She had not realized it until this second, but although everything else in the medroom reflected exactly, she herself was not in the mirror.

Mary Worth had taken her place.

If before she had been frightened, now she was utterly terrified, and she watched with growing horror as the old crone withdrew from her robe a long silver knife, wrinkled bony fingers clutching the blackened hilt. Shelly quickly looked around the room to make sure there was no real Mary Worth present, then glanced down at her own body to make sure there was no superimposition upon her frame, to make sure she was not wearing a black robe and withdrawing a knife of which she was unaware.

No.

But in the mirror she was still not visible and Mary Worth, her twisted smile growing broader, turned around, gripping the knife tightly, and walked over toward where Sam lay on the bed reading.

Shelly was staring into the mirror as the old crone began to stab, and she whirled around when Sam started screaming behind her.

There was still no Mary Worth, but Sam was thrashing around on the bed, sudden slices opening up the skin of his chest and thigh, blood both welling and spurting depending on the location of the slash, covering his skin and his fallen magazine, the pink sheets and pillowcases, the headboard and the nightstand and the Indian rug on the hardwood floor.

There was no noise save for Sam's ear-piercing screams, and that was perhaps the most frightening thig of all. In the mirror, Mary Worth was laughing, cackling, but there was no accompanying sound. Her voice, if she had one, was trapped behind the glass, audible online in that world, and while her actions were manifest in the real bedroom, her form and voice were not.

How had Mary Worth come? No one had invoked her name.

There was a missing piece here. Shelly could buy the concept of summoning up an evil spirit, but she did not quite believe that Mary Worth was able to show up on her own, without being called. That wasn't the way it was supposed to work, and while the story she'd been told might be part of a children's game, there was a kernel of truth to all legends.

Sam had stopped screaming. He was dead, but Mary Worth continued to stap, and is lifeless body jerked on the mattress with the foce of her knife blows.

Shelly was not screaming either. She was not panicking, not afraid, and while she was probably just in shock, Sam's murder was not the horrifyingly cataclysmic event that it should have been. Indeed, she felt detached from it, the scene next to her in the room as distant, flat, and removed as something on television, the reflection in the mirror only slightly more immediate because of the frightening visage of Mary Worth.

Mary Worth.

Even the monster was not as terrifying as she had been. Shelly was getting used to the crone, and she thought that perhaps she had summoned the hag, had subconsciously wanted her to do just what she was doing.

No.

She and Sam might have drifted apart. Maybe she didn't even love him anymore. But never in her most vicious fantasies had she ever wishe dhim dead. This was all Mary Worth's doing, not hers.

But she would be blamed for it.

The knowledge hit her all of a sudden. SHe once again faced the bed, saw her husband's bloody body, his chest cavity hacked open so wide that portions of organs were visible through the rent skin and muscle.

She turned back toward the mirror.

In the glass, Mary Worth was once again standing in her place on the other side of the dresser, looking back at her.

And she was smiling.

"If you want my body, and you think i'm sexy..."

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 18:20:36 GMT

my mom got tickets to go see Rod Stewart. -blinks- yeah, she was talking about how her and her co-workers were gonna throw their underwear at him or something...lol. he's gonna be at the tweeter. my mom knows a guy who works there, and he got them front row tickets for cheaper than they should have been. well, shit, next concert that's there, i'm gonna benefit very well. :)

speaking of the Tweeter...not sure yet if i'm gonna go to that concert. i want to go, but i'm hella-sick still. i hate being sick. drains the fun out of a lot of stuff. meh, oh well. if i go, i go. if i don't, well that's fine, cuz i would have gotten in free anyways.

i have to fix my hair...i'm really lazy right now though, so i dunno when that's gonna happen.

i'm so excited to be in choir next year. i guess we're gonna go to New Orleans this year, which is awesome. the last trip i went on with them was to New York, and it was so much fun...we won first place on everything. but NEW ORLEANS! that's the main setting for Anne Rice's books...and hear it's pretty out there. oh, i'm too pumped.

i want some pizza rolls. i haven't had those in a long time...and i want some right now. ugh...i am so HUNGRY!

started writing again...i dunno what possessed me to start. but i'm glad i did. i always feel better when i put whatever i'm feeling down on paper and out of my head. unfortunately it's hard sometimes though. because, what seemed limitless in my head was now toned down in order to be put into words, and whatever it was that i was thinking doesn't always seem as important as it did in my head...and i hate that sometimes. because...when people read it, they don't REALLY get it...the feeling that's in it. hm, that's probably why i don't like it when people read my poems...and probably the same reason why i don't let many people even know that i write them. it's my own little sanctuary, i guess.

that's all i got for now...

and...i'm out...:P

-barf-

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 05:52:24 GMT

well, i feel kinda sickly. still have my throat issues, and my stomach on top of that. i hate getting sick.

Alex got his tires slashed and challenge park today. he went to see a concert there, and i guess some drunk guy slashed his tires (or so he says). so, it's still sitting there. we're gonna go and get it in the morning, there's a cop out there keeping an eye on it...and said we had to move it by tomorrow around 6pm or so. but still, alex got all the shit out of there, even the stereo. lol. so even if someone did try to steal it, there's nothing TO steal...it's a '86 cutlass that runs like crap.

i went to go eat with my parents today at Outback Steakhouse. then...we went to go get ice cream at Culvers (or something like that). yeah, so i ate way too much. the guy there was pretty hot. but, i wasn't going to do anything about it with the parentals there...i was kinda uncomfortable. after that, i went to Barnes & Nobles and got 2 books: The House by Bentley Little, and The Mummy: or Ramses the Damned by Anne Rice. Bentley Little is a pretty good writer...his shit is fucked up.

Jena came and got me around 11, and we drove to Burger King downtown by Central. ugh...i couldn't even watch her eat i was so grossed out by food. i don't eat after 8pm anymore, unless i'm that hungry. i dunno why, just a habit i guess. so we drove around fron there and there was an accident on Jefferson, but she wouldn't go by it. lol...she doesn't like cops. well, neither do i, but still...i wanted to see what was happening. oh well. so i can home around 12:30...didn't notice that i left my phone in her car until about 5 minutes ago. so she had to come by and drop it off tomorrow morning. hm.

tomorrow...was planning on going to the Static X concert. dunno if i am now. if i feel better, then i will. but i am not about to be jumping around with a bunch of people while i'm in barf-mode. it will not end well, i tell ya. if i don't go, then i'll just have Alex get me a t-shirt or something, and i'll stay home and do what i do best: sleep.

2 more days until school starts. 2!!!! this summer went by way too fast. but it was fun, for the most part. i just wish i didn't have to start up school so damn early.

i'm gonna go and i dunno...do some shit online.

and...i'm out...:)

so many bands...so little time...

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 05:38:10 GMT

so Alex is in another band...hopefully, he'll stick with this one. i guess with some of his other ones, they slasked off or weren't serious (or at least, that's what he said). so, we'll see. hopefully, this one will work out for him. he's plays really well, so i would hate to see that go to waste.

aww...lookit me, the twin caring for her brother. SHUTAAAAP!

well, i'm majorly pissed about my comcast cable. we got a new cable box, becaquse we got a HDTV, and we get special channels or something...i dunno. anyways, i noticed that channels 501-540 were missing, and so were MTV hits, and the other music channels. well, i guess that Starz, HBO, and the music channels all came out with their own packages, which means you can't get all of them together anymore. not unless you wanna pay a shitload of money. fuck that shit. i'm getting the dish...

i ended up coming home early tonight from work. didn't feel well...figures. have to get all sickly BEFORE school starts back up. i'm kinda excited abou this year though...SENIORS! then, off to Tennessee, i am. i just wish we didn't have to start school so damned early. "oh, well, we're gonna have more snow days..." how the hell do they know that? -sigh- stupid JT.

talked to an ex-boyfriend earlier today. Jon. yeah, that was an experience. he goes out with someone but he was still hitting on me. i hate guys who do that. DUDE, JUST STICK WITH ONE! and then talking abo tuhow you screw around on your girlfriend doesn't exactly give you brownie points from me. -blinks- i dunno WHAT i was thinking with him.

Jason Patric from the "Lost Boys" has very intense eyes. i noticed that the other day when the movie was on tv. i feel like watching it right now. hm, i think i will.

plus, i want to do some writing. haven't written my poems in a long time...probably because i've been so damn busy. and when i'm not busy, i'm sleeping or distracted by the tv. so yeah, gonna go do that now...

and...i'm out...:P