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Saturday, February 7th, 2004
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3:11 pm
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hello my DJ friends....
i have switched to livejournal. if you really love me you'll check up on what i have to say on there. my sn on there is just_invisible. you guys should switch to there. it's a lot better. but no pressure.
<3 always,
amber
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| Monday, January 26th, 2004
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9:34 am
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i have gotten rid of...
mentalwarp7
_STILLBORN_
we never really talk...sorry
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| Thursday, January 22nd, 2004
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9:39 am
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well, once again i'm at school. i'm in a different 3rd period b/c the one i'm in went on some kind of competition for the next 2 days and i didn't want to go. so, i'm stuck in here with nothing to do.
sorry i haven't been updating or posting comments in your journals. i haven't had access to a computer for quite awhile. so, i apoligize my DJ friends. just going to school and going to work has been too much of a hassle. i haven't been able to go over to my grandparents (where the computer is) as often as i've liked lately.
anywho, me and jack are good. it was a month on monday!!! he's sooooooo sweet. he's adorable. he's the best. i wish i had a scanner that way i could put his pic up here. ::sigh:: me and my friend garrett gave him a mohawk about 3 1/2 weeks ago and his school was being all bitchy and told him to shave his head. so now he has no hair but he still looks cute.
graduation will be here in 4 months exactly on the 25th of this month. i'm soooo excited. i ordered all my senior stuff about 2 weeks ago. i have my tassle hanging from my rearview mirror and it makes me feel so good because i've accomplished something after 12 long, horrible years!!! i think my stepmom doesn't have faith in me about graduating. which really puts me down. in all honesty i think she's jealous b/c she dropped out in her junior or senior year....pure idiocy!!!
anywho, i took a bar for the first time last saturday. and lemme tell ya..don't expect to remember anything if you take one. i don't remember hardly anything. they're fun though. i'm looking for more along with some more drug paraphanelia.
i'm soooo bored. i don't know what to talk about. nothing much has been going on. i could talk about my christmas break....but i don't know if i talked about that already in my previous entries.
well, i dyed my hair black over christmas break and my dad totally spazzed out. he started calling me goth and told me i was all into this death stuff....JUST BECAUSE MY HAIR IS FUCKING BLACK!! geez! how stereotypical can someone get?!?! THEN, i got this wallet that's hot pink and says "fuck" all over it...he went through my purse, found it, and started calling me stupid and ignorant for it. i didn't really talk to him on christmas or new years (also his birthday) and he got mad at me for it. blah blah blah!! what kind of shit is that?!?! so, ever since i was about 12 or 13, i've ALWAYS had a horrible christmas. oh! new years....
i had to work new years eve but i got off of work early enough to party....and lemme tell ya party i did. hardcore! i went to a friends party in my neighbor hood. i didn't drink right away. after awhile i wanted to. so, i had 4 shots of tequila and 2 shots of vodka. pretty much right after another. not such a smart thing to do. i promise you. then, for some odd reason i started drinking vodka straight up from a cup. stupid me. i was fucking wasted. i couldn't walk at all. i was puking my insides up. sooo...my good friend daniel didn't know what to do because i was pretty out of it. so, he called my stepmom and told me that i was really drunk. she came and picked me up from the party....ya<----embarrassment!! she started yelling at me and i was crying. i was sooo upset because my real mom is an alcoholic and i was crying about not wanting to be like her and how i felt like her. then, my stepmom started crying b/c i guess she felt bad about me and what i was saying. then, we got home and my dad was pretty pissed. i thought it was funny. he pushed me b/c he was mad at me. but i passed out and had a mad hangover the next day.
quite a story, huh?
oh and over xmas break me and jack got into a big arguement. i don't know what got into us. i was hanging out with my friend daniel and we were chugging down the brewskies and i was pretty wasted (yes once again!) and he called me and we started fighting and blah blah. and for some odd reason i told him that i loved him and freaked out on me and told me that he wanted to be on a break. well, ms.sensitivity over here (meaning me) took it as breaking up. so, then i started freaking out and crying hysterically. i was devestated. i didn't want to talk to him because i was drunk and every time he called me that week i was drunk or either getting drunk and i felt bad. plus, i didn't want to talk to him b/c it wouldn't be a civil conversation but he didn't want to hang up. he wanted to be stubborn and force me to talk to him. that made me mad. but we're ok now.
although he's my ex b/f's cousin...and my ex's family hates me. but oh well, fuck them! they started talking crap about me to him and that made things sorta shakie for us. stupid people.
well, i think i'm gonna go. the bells about to ring in 15 minutes and i'm gonna just gonna chill out for the rest of the period.
i'll try to update sooner or later. adios amigos!
<3,
amber
current mood:  calm
current music: senses fail
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| Sunday, January 18th, 2004
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2:28 pm
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well, i'm really bored. i decided to put some pics up here. but i'll tell you about my weekend first. friday nite i just chilled over here at my grandma's. then saturday i went to the mall and got some new allstars and some boots. they're pretty nifty. i also got this watch. i love it. it's holographic and it looks kinda vintage. anywho, today i'm going over to jacks house. it'll be a month on monday. we're gonna spend ALL DAY with each other. yippee. well, here are some pics hope ya like them....
current mood: excited
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2:24 pm
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Pale angel go away
Come again some other day
The devil has my ear today
I'll never hear of what you say
Promised I would find a little solace
And some piece of mind
Whatever just as long as I don't feel so
Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless over you
Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless
over you
current mood:  loved
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| Friday, January 16th, 2004
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10:53 pm
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i'm extremely bored. anyone wanna help me with my layout/background/icon???
current mood:  bored
current music: a perfect cirlcle-nurse who loved me
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| Friday, December 26th, 2003
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8:05 pm - ::being emo::
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i left you in the darkness
with no one to be with
no one to hold your hand
no one to kiss your lips
it hurt to turn my back to you
and it hurt to see you cry
i know what i did was wrong
but the right thing to do was leave you
because i'd only do it again
and it would hurt you more each time
so do what i did
and walk away
leave me in the darkness
with no one to be with
no one to hold my hand
no one to kiss my lips
current mood: crappy
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2:25 pm - ::happy dance::
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well, i got a cell phone for christmas. it's the new kyocera V5 slider. ::woot:: it's pretty nifty. here's what i got...
1.100 bucks from my granny
2.pink all stars from my cousin
3.a pink fairy diary
4.a neon geetar lamp
5.spongebob coffee cup with candy in it
6.candles
7.toe socks
8.boxers
9.6 CD changer stereo
10.cell phone
11.purse
12.2 belly button rings
13.make up
14.2 gift cards to wal*mart
15.10 bucks
16.perfume
17.jumper cables & stuff to clean my car with
18.AFI tshirt from my lovely boyfriend
19.nifty earrings also from my lovely boyfriend
i don't know if that's it but if i remember some more stuff i'll put it up here. well, i'm gonna go.
<3
amber
current mood: excited
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| Monday, December 15th, 2003
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9:47 am - meow
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well, my weekend was eventful i guess you could say.
friday nite i didn't have to work so me and garrett went to jack's house and chilled for awhile.
then, garrett told me that daniel (my friend that moved to mississippi) had a surprise for us and to be at the bowling alley at 11pm. so, we were there and waited and waited. and finally daniel's brother showed up and told me that daniel is coming back monday...THAT'S TODAY! ::happy dance::
then, saturday i had to be at work at 5pm. that was quite interesting. julio and the "manager", missy broke up. julio likes me and wants to uhh, i guess "do" me. well, we flirted all saturday nite. ashley and julio were singing that ludicris, chingy, and snoop dogg song over the phone. and julio came up to the hostess stand and i was like "hey, julio can you rub on my nipples?!?" and i was just kidding around. rosita told missy and missy told mitch<---the head honcho. mitch came up to julio and asked him if i said that and he lied for me and missy's like "i can't believe you're going to lie for her!" it's some pretty messed up shit.
THEN, this couple came in to eat and they're regulars...ashley was at the hostess stand and i think i was too, i can't remember. and rosita was walking up. and as rosita was walking up, ashley told peachie and her husband (the regulars) that there were no open tables BUT there was. and rosita started freaking out. so, sunday when i come into work i get bitched at for it. i didn't say anything to couple and i'm the one getting blamed. what kind of load of shit is that!?! i'm pissed.
i'm tired of getting in trouble for something I DIDN'T DO. and i'm tired of getting in the middle of other people's shit.
missy confronted rosita about the whole situation between me and julio. missy is fucking 34 and fucking scared to confront me, a short ass 17 year old. that's makes feel soooo ::rawr:: and it makes her look so goddamn fucking pathetic. i want to tell her something soooooo bad. i swear. if she's keying tonite at work not one word is going to be said to her. she annoys the fuck outta me.
anywho, onto happy thoughts. i picked up garrett after work. it was raining cats and dogs. i looked pretty caaaa-ute. i had on jeans, a dark purple kinda fleece turtleneck, and my black allstars. and my hair was straight and i had on some purpley eyeshadow. i was dazzling. anywho, we went to jack's and hung out. then, i had to be home at 1am. so, we left at like 1. hehe. i called my friend ben when i got home b/c he's been worried about. i stayed on the phone with him until like 2 something. then, i called jack and we talked on the phone until like 4:30am or so. i had to be at work at 11:30. i was tired. jack told me that he wanted to kiss me on several occasions. it was cute b/c he was all shy about it.
then, sunday after work i went home and changed. i went over to jack's around 5ish or so. we went to blockbuster in hopes of renting edward scissorhands but they didn't have it ::sigh:: but we rented SLC PUNK instead. that's a pretty good movie. anywho, he also bought me a meowing gary (the snail from spongebob). i told him not to but he refused to listen to me.
jack is really cute and sweet. when it was time for me to go home last night, he walked me out to my car. it was cold and the sky was clear and full of stars. we both saw a shooting star. it was romantic in a way. and you know when you start talking but then you stop and you look at each other and it's one of those moments that you wanna kiss each other but you're not sure if you should or not and it's all quite and weird....that's how it was for me and jack. and then all of a sudden, he like bent over 2 fucking feet to kiss me. it was funny. it's a good kisser. i'm impressed. it was nice to get that frustration out of the way. teehee
when we were watching the movie, we were upstairs on the couch. i was all the way on the right side and he was all the way on the left side. i started laughing about it and made myself look stupid. i was too scared to scoot over and i know he was too. it was funny and cute. i just wanted to jump on over but i didn't know if i should or not.
today and tomorrow are the last 2 days of my 1st semester of my senior year. half way through. i'm not ready but i'm kinda apathetic about the whole situation. i'm not in the senior mode. it's called senioritis. we order our caps and gowns january 9th of next year of course. hopefully i'll be walking across the stage. ::eek::
oh oh! albert, one of my best friends, made me a christmas present. it's funny. he came up to me this morning and gave me a wrapped up pepsi bottle. and he's weird like that so, i thought it was just an empty pepsi bottle. i unwrapped it and it's a brown beanie. he put "moo" on it with that fabric paint. moo is my nickname from last year. i don't remember why but that's what he called me. teehee. i think that's the sweetest thing. i told him a few weeks ago that i wanted a brown beanie. how sweet. i love my albert.
oh ya! i saw adam (my crush from 3 years ago). he came to my school on friday. i miss him sooo much. i wish he didn't have his g/f. i know that's a bad wish. but i really like him and i've liked him ever since i was a freaking sophomore. ::sigh:: oh well, there's nothing i can do about it.
wow, i've had a lot to say. i think i'm all out of events to talk about. i don't know when i'll be able to go to my grandparents but i'll try to go soon.
current mood:  tired
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| Thursday, December 11th, 2003
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9:34 am
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i attempted to update yesterday but there were so many pop-up ads popping up on the computer. and the computer was fucking up so, i had to restart.
i don't think i'm going to graduate this year b/c of my math teacher. he's horrible at was he's SUPPOSED to do. i have like a 40 something in that class. and out of 10 tests or so, i've only passed probably 2 or 3. i know i suck at math but in the past, i've past more tests than that. it's quite pathetic if you ask me. i'm really upset and i don't know what to do.
anywho..
i went to work yesterday and met this guy named joe. he's really, really, really sexy. he's about 2 or 3 inches taller than me, he has dark hair and dark eyes, he has kind of a long goatee, and he's 23. BUT...here's the suckie thing...
HE'S FROM FUCKING LAS VEGAS!!!
that totally sucks. but there's kind of an advantage. he's staying at the holiday inn down the street from my neighborhood. ::happy dance:: he's leaving sunday so, maybe i'll stop by today or tomorrow. probably tomorrow since i don't have to work.
then, the sweetest thing happened to me at work. this guy (i don't know how old he was) walked up to me and asked me how much the animal crackers were and i told him that they were free. then, he went to leave and he stopped, turned around, and looked at me and said "you're really pretty". it was the sweetest thing. i think he was kind of mentally slow but i'm not sure. but it was still the sweetest thing. i felt all warm and tingly inside. because i don't hear that everyday. i always hear that i'm hot and that some guy wants to fuck me. ya, that's pretty cool but i want a sweet guy to call me pretty and mean it.
and another thing...
i met daniel's (my ex b/f from 10th grade) cousin friday night (just had a deja vu) at the bowling alley. he's pretty cool and cute. i started to talk to him yesterday. we have a lot in common. especially music and that's a total plus for me. he's pretty cool. maybe we'll hang out tomorrow or something. ::wink::
i have told so many guys that i've liked them and it hasn't quite worked out the way i want it to. there's thrash, jack, aaron, joe (the guy from las vegas), robert (the guy i work with). it's kind of confusing. they all want me (not trying to sound conceited) and i don't know who i want. i hate making decisions.
aaron thinks that we're dating and talking "serious". whatever that's supposed to mean. but i don't want to go out with him. i've changed my mind. i think he's smoked himself stupid, honestly. we have things in common but we just don't talk much. and well, i like to talk to the person i'm going out with. makes sense, doesn't it?
::rawr:: i'm in 3rd period, it's 9:44 am and we're watching that movie with the indian chick that plays soccer. all the people are making fun of the indian girls/guys and it's kind of pissing me off.
oh oh! i stayed after 4th period yesterday to help my teacher grade papers and she boosted my grade up 10 points! now i can exempt 3 classes. i'll only be here monday and tuesday of next week. AND THAT'S THE END OF THE 1ST SEMESTER. not that i'm excited or anything. i'm just halfway done.
i'm going to tell my stepmom that i'm not going to live with them after i graduate. i'm not sure when but probably next week or sooner. i'm kind of scared b/c i know my parents are going to be mucho pissed.
well, i'm gonna watch the movie. i'll update tomorrow. later gators.
<3
amber
current mood:  stressed
current music: the movie on tv
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| Tuesday, December 9th, 2003
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9:32 am
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well, my speeding ticket is over a $1,000!! ya...a lot of moola. ::sigh:: being on probation is a possibility. so much trouble for a speeding ticket. i don't get it. i'm aggravated about that. and i don't think my dad likes me at the moment. blah! oh well. well, i'm gonna go.
current mood:  contemplative
current music: the teacher talking
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| Sunday, December 7th, 2003
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5:05 pm
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well, my happy mood has been crushed. i want to see rick and go to my works christmas party. i called my stepmom to ask her if i could go and she started bitching at me about my car. and blah blah blah. so, i'm gonna go home being all lonely and upset and they're not gonna make me feel any better. just worse. stupid parents..i hate em.
current mood: crappy
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3:55 pm - christmas list
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1.new bellybutton ring
2.tongue piercing
3.AFI poster
4.BLOW DVD
5.grand champeen CD (battle cry for help)
6.new pink allstars
7.blood brothers CD
8.modest mouse CD
9.the anniversary CD
10.rocky horror picture show DVD
11.bookstop/barnes and noble gift card
12.hopesfall CD
14.johnny depp poster
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i think that's all i pretty much want. but i know i'm not getting it all or any of it for that matter. with my ticket and all. my dad said he's getting me a cell phone for christmas but i don't know anymore. i screwed up BIG time. ::rawr::
current mood:  full
current music: grand champeen-cottonmouth
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1:31 pm - ::rawr:: rick is sooooo zesty!!
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rikkofurr: man
dr pee pee is in: man?
rikkofurr: my penis is hard
dr pee pee is in: from what?
rikkofurr: lol
rikkofurr: im just kidding
dr pee pee is in: ya right
rikkofurr: it could be though
rikkofurr: cmon over ill bend you over the bed
dr pee pee is in: it most likely is
dr pee pee is in: how bout i just prance on top of you, eh?
dr pee pee is in: ::rawr::
rikkofurr: rawr.
dr pee pee is in: i want to take a steamy shower
rikkofurr: cmon
rikkofurr: lets do it
rikkofurr: i need to take a shower anyways
dr pee pee is in: as do i
rikkofurr: u dirty?
dr pee pee is in: but you're not gonna wait 30-40 minutes for me to come over
dr pee pee is in: i'm a diry girl lol
rikkofurr: sure i will
rikkofurr: hahah
rikkofurr: ill clean you
rikkofurr: then make you even dirtier
dr pee pee is in: rawr
rikkofurr: mmhmmm
current mood:  horny
current music: captain planet theme song
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1:17 am
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what pisses me off is that when i have a boyfriend i don't always spend my time with him, i make time for my friends, too. but when it comes to my friends and they have boyfriends, suddenly there's no time for me.
amber who?...exactly!
it just pisses me off, ROYALY!
current mood:  pissed off
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| Saturday, December 6th, 2003
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9:24 pm - pics of me
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yes...
that is me. the 2nd, 4th and last picture are the 3 pics i took today (the most recent). the rest are from i guess september i suppose.
anywho..
i'm extremely tired and i've calmed down a bit. i went out to dinner with my grandma. we went to my favorite mexican restaurant, Don Jose. before we left i broke down crying b/c i've had everything bottled up inside me and i just couldn't take it anymore. knowing that daniel might not be coming back hurts me more than i thought it would.
christmas is almost here, kinda. 18 days. and i'm all alone. i hate being alone during the holidays. it just makes me feel more alone i guess you could say. you don't have that special someone to buy for or you know you won't be getting anything from that special someone b/c there is no special someone.
see...
this is why i hate being a hopeless romantic and being extremely emo. it annoys me. and i hate being this way b/c i'm always upset and cry about every damn thing! ::rawr::
i wish i could be like my cousin and not worry about having a b/f. she does sometimes but doesn't let it interfere with her life....like i do.
i will admit that i'm afraid of being alone and that i'm scared i'll never find anyone to love me or be in love with me. i know you can't go looking for love and expect to find something. it doesn't work like that. it'll have to find me but i'm just being impatient.
well, i'm really tired and my vision is starting to spaz out. i'll update later on or tomorrow before i head back to my dad's. ::sigh::
current mood: horny
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6:25 pm - this is how i feel right about now...
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mudvayne-world so cold
When passion's lost
And all the trust is gone
Way too far
For way too long
Children crying
Cast out and neglected
Only in a world so cold
Only in a world this cold
Hold the hand of your best friend
Look into their eyes
Then watch them drift away
Some might say
We've done the wrong things
For way too long
For way too long
Fever inside the storm
So I'm turning away
Away from the names
Away from the stones
Cuz I'm through mending the wounds of us
Keep your thorns
Cuz I'm running away
Away from the games
Away from the space
The circumstances of a world so cold
Burning whispers
Remind me of the days
I was left alone
In a world this cold
Guilty of the same things
Provoked by the cause
I've left alone in a world so cold
Fever inside the storm
So I'm turning away
Away from the names
Away from the stones
cuz i'm through mending the wounds of us
Keep your thorns
Cuz I'm running away
Away from the games
Away from the space
The circumstances of a world so cold
Well I'm flying
I'm flying away
Away from the names
Away from the games
The circumstances of a world so cold
Why does everyone feel like my enemy
Don't want any part of depression or darkness
I've had enough, sick and tired,
Bring the sun or I'm gone
or I'm gone, I'm backing out, I'm no pawn, no motherfuckin' slave to this
Never loved, never lied, never lived, never loved, never lost,
never hurt, never worried about being me,
Or anyone else, not a care, no concern, don't give a shit about anything,
backing out, giving up, no motherfuckin' slave to this Never lied, never
left, never lived, never left, never lost, never hurt never worried about
being me, Or anyone else, not a care, no concern, don't give a shit about
anything,
I need to find a darkened corner
A lightless corner,
where its safer and calmer
I'm turning away, away from the names away from the stones
Cause I through mending the wounds of us,
I'm running away, away from the game away from this space
the circumstances of a world so cold,
I'm flying, I'm flying away, away from the names away from the game
the circumstances of a world so cold.
current mood: crappy
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5:16 pm
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i just fucking love it when everything at once decides to pile up on me. i'm a very emotional person and being that way doesn't help when i get like this. and by this i mean depressed as hell about everything and anything.
last nite i got a ticket for going 88 in a 45. ya, go me. and i have from now until jan. 9th, 2004 to save my money up.
THEN..this is what really got me. i found out that someone really close to me and means a lot to me is pregnant. usually i'd be happy and thrilled to death. but as seeing as i hate the guy she's with, i'm so upset. he's controlling and she fucking knows it, too. she told me. having this baby is just one more thing to keep him with her. but you know, i warned her and i tried helping her. she know's i'm here for her. i know how controlling guys can get. and if they don't hit the girls at first...they will, eventually. i'm just scared for her and what's going to happen to her.
she probably thinks i'm being selfish b/c i seem to be thinking all about myself.
and another thing to top my depression off: my really good friend daniel has gone to mississippi until dec. 17th to visit his dad before he goes into the marines. and if he has a job in mississippi-he stays. but if not-comes back. i'm happy that he's finally made his decision and hasn't decided to throw his life away. but i'm not happy about him leaving. i guess i'm just being selfish as usual.
i can't stand when i'm like this b/c it just hits me like a ton of bricks and this depression shit comes out of nowhere. i can't be happy, i can't have a good time, i don't feel like talking to anyone, and i'll probably just sleep away. i hate feeling like this. it's probably one of the most annoying things that could happen to me. i want to be able to be the dorky/gooberish chick that i am. but instead i'm being this bump on a log or if you want a "party pooper". i hate being a teenager.
how many times have you heard that line?
my stepmom called me and told me that aaron called a few hours ago. i'm still debating on whether i should call him back. we hardly talk on the phone or in person. and me being in this mood of mine just isn't going to help that.
well, enough of my adolescence bullshit.
current mood: crushed
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| Thursday, December 4th, 2003
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8:54 am
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well, once again i'm in the computer lab during my english class. i'm bored as hell. i'm finished with my college research project. my stepmom told me to start thinking about after graduation and what i want to do. i kinda know what i want to do i just don't have the heart to say anything. i'm so confused. oh ya.
THIS IS TO KIM:
my stepmom saw my back and i kinda got in trouble and we had an "arguement" about it. she asked who did it and i just told her it was some chick named amy that lives near granny and poppy.
i was cleaning out my cabinet thingies where i put all my books and stuff. and i found pictures of me and damien when we were together. my hair was so light it looks almost blonde. and it was soo long too. well, not that long but compared to how it is now it was long. ya, looking at those pictures brought back a lot of memories and i forgot how hot he looked. oh well!
i'm not so sure about aaron now. he's kinda dorky and we never talk. so, it's not that it's boring it's just awkward. you know what i mean?!?
i think i like someone else that i work with. i'm not going to say his name on here b/c i don't know if aaron will someday find this. but anywho, i had a dream about the other guy last nite. we were at the employee meeting and we were walking by each other and we just kissed. it was kinda weird b/c i never really imagined kissing him. i don't know. i'm so confused.
i have to go christmas shopping. i think this is what i'm going to get my friends...
Tati: The Strokes CD
Marion: clothes from Buy-Yah-Kah and something from bath and body works
Sandy: I don't know what to get her. If her b/f doesn't get her the 3 Days Grace CD, then that's what I'm going to get her.
I had the perfect gift idea for my cousin kim and i totally forgot what it was now. ::shucks::
i went out to dinner with my grandparents last nite. we went to james coney island. ::mmmm:: i had a large dr.pepper, cheese fries, and some custard pie. it was pretty good. maybe i'll go back today.
but i need that money for the "stuff". ::wink::
this really sucks that i can't exempt any of my classes. i'm sooo pissed. i'm a senior and i've tried to get my grades up. argh i'm stupid. that means i have to go to school on the 15th-19th. all the other seniors won't have to (if they're exempt)! eh, there's always next semester. i'm trying harder now. i don't want to fail anyone. especially myself.
onto a different subject:
i have 2 new tattoo ideas.
1.the AFI devil-i'm going to put that wear the low rise jeans are like an inch away from my pelvic bone
2.there's a picture of a heart in the "art of drowning" CD cover and i'm going to put that on my lower back and i'm gonna put "poisoned hearts will never change"
what do ya think? sound nifty?
well, i have nothing else to say. i'll update another time. my teacher read this and laughed at the whole "stuff" things. she knows it's drugs. lol oh well
current mood:  confused
current music: usual cRAP stuff
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well, i got my progress report. here are the grades...
1st-Math Models: 38 F
2nd-English 4: 95 A
3rd-Marketing Education: 94 A
4th-BCIS- 74 D
ya, my grades suck this time. i won't get to exempt any of my classes b/c of 1. my grades and 2. i went to EC (where all the "bad" kids go) and that enables you to exempt. so, shucks! i think i'm grounded from the phone too! oh well. the whole grounding technique has gotten old and doesn't work on me anymore. how sad is that?!?! i've been grounded from the phone so many times since i started living with my dad it's pathetic. i've gotten used to it. they just don't realize that. i should let them think it bothers me that way they won't take away anything else. that'd be the smart thing to do. ugh, my tummy is starting to hurt really bad. i get out at 10:30 AM today but i have to stay after for tutoring and make-up a test in math models. ahhh! how i hate math with a passion. i went to aaron's last nite to give him a copy of the schedule (we work together) and it was kinda weird. we're at the stage where we don't know what to say so it's always quiet. i hope that doesn't make a complication for us being "together" b/c he seems really cool. but yaaa. i got my dumb paycheck yesterday it was $37.something. how sad! for all you people looking for a job...DON'T WORK AT OUTBACK AS A HOSTESS/HOST!!! the pay is really shitty. 2.13/hr. plus tips. and sometimes the tips are really shitty. and i hear that the servers don't make that much money either. just a fair warning. i think i just saw a bird poop (i'm facing a window if you guys were wondering how i saw). well, i'm gonna go. i don't think i'll be in the computer lab tomorrow so i won't be able to update. well, maybe b/c i have computers in 3rd period. anywho, i'm off. 13 more days until xmas break! ::woot::
current mood: angry
current music: some cRAP shit from this dudes CD player
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