urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass __fuckass __fuckass 2004-09-04T18:20:01Z urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:9258 2004-09-04T14:19:00 2004-09-04T18:20:01Z 2004-09-04T18:20:01Z dear ________ , <br /><br /><br />i'm not even sure if there are words in the dictionary to describe exactly what i think about you. so for lack of a more elegant way to put it: i think you are a worthless, manipulative piece of shit. there, i said it and this time i'm not going to feel bad about it. and to think i almost actually called you and apologized for the things i said about you before. i was almost sorry, because i thought i may have been wrong about you, but now i realize that you're just extremely talented in persuasion.<br /><br />i didn't like you from the start. something was wrong. it's that feeling you get, when something's just not in the right place. like you've forgotten something but you can't figure out what. that's how i felt about you, something wasn't right. but it wasn't my place to do anything about it or say anything, so i just kept it to myself. as time went on, i was a witness to all the ridiculous shit you pulled and my disliking for you grew stronger and stronger. still not my place to intrude, i kept to myself. and then the breaking point, where i just couldn't handle you treating her in such a two-faced manipulative fashion and i finally had a reason to hate you. something to justify my thoughts from the very beginning. something to prove to me and everyone else that you really are just a worthless piece of shit.<br /><br /><br />yes, i realize that i barely know you. but that's ok. because you have so many faces i'm sure it really doesn't matter either way. i always wished that i was wrong about you, and who knows, maybe i am. i hope i'm wrong. i hope that this is all just a huge fucking misunderstanding and if so, i apologize. but i have a feeling that i'm not the one who should be apologizing here. and even if this was a misunderstanding, if you are innocent of the things you've been accused of, it doesn't change the fact that you treat my best friend like shit on a daily basis and she's constantly upset or worrying because of you. the best part is, dustin, that you KNOW all of this and you do absolutely nothing to correct yourself. you just put on an act. you lie and pretend like you're a little fucking angel and would never do anything of ill intention. and it works. it fucking words. that's what i hate the most about you. you really don't deserve her.<br /><br />learn how to treat the people you say you care about. or better yet, just get hit by a train. kthanks.<br /><br />sincerely,<br />shana. urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:8974 2004-07-19T14:46:00 2004-07-19T18:53:33Z 2004-07-19T18:53:33Z come on! you lick everything!<br />beepbeep, beepbeep<br />that's disgusting!<br />you have pizza in your hair<br />that is so gross<br />you have pizza in your hair!<br />oh he signed off<br />cool<br />and then didn't come back on for a really long time<br />::cough::<br />i don't think dan's ever gonna go on this stupid thing<br />the fuckin message board, the fuckin message board<br />like ten times<br />you should be like, you're crazy<br />come onnn!<br />ughhhhIHATEYOUSOMUCH, i hate it!<br />can we fix it?<br />i've redownloaded it like twice<br />do it, do it.<br />and on top of it all, <br />the good version?<br />i know<br />really?<br />well, he HAD it.<br />oh my goodddddd<br />:::taps foot::::<br />i want to go back to sleep kind of<br />oh my knee is killing me<br />i want to shower<br />aww!<br />dude!!<br />dude!!<br />TWO DAYS!! the day after tomorrow!<br />yeah it did.<br />she's still gon' be ok right?<br />she's a pretty girl<br />she just don' like me<br />he's a goof<br />i just wanna go onliiiinnee<br />::::yawn:::: urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:8788 2004-07-16T00:35:00 2004-07-16T04:43:11Z 2004-07-16T04:43:11Z hmm what should we talk about<br />ooh me too, good shit<br />or something like that. <br />gotta love em.<br />any specific kind?<br />kept bringing it back, to the slumber party<br />for some reason.<br />it probably should.<br />oh it will.<br />someone, i can't remember who<br />if you have a chance with <br />wait, what?<br />well yeah i know<br />don't you agree?<br />that one of his friends would say that<br />you wish<br />hahaha<br />YOU wish!<br />duuuuude<br />carmex<br />do you remember where you used it last?<br />oh i know<br />duuuude<br />yeah you do<br />oh, thanks<br />it's not AS good though<br />hahha<br />oh you're doing OUR conversation?<br />like the snare drum, listen to it<br />oh wow<br />whoops..<br />well we only need four. urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:8586 2004-07-16T00:32:00 2004-07-16T04:37:08Z 2004-07-16T04:37:08Z pardon? <br />Did you eat some? <br />Why <br />everything tastes weird <br />yesterday morning <br />Awwww <br />well its bloody ha <br />Oof <br />so basically its awesome <br />Hahaha <br />Awesome <br />and my friends just came over <br />Awwww that's sweet <br />yea i &lt;3 flowers <br />Being a girl isn't so bad <br />Whoa <br />That's serious<br />What boys attention are you trying to get? <br />Are you lieing? <br />i just think they are fun <br />I'm sure they are cute <br />Send me a link to the picture <br />Ill just look at myspace when I get home <br />I'm on the kick. <br />ohh lame <br />yea its your fault <br />kartwheels <br />Home from practice <br />what was that movie you were talking about a reeeeeally long time ago?<br />With fred savage and howie mandel<br />Get that one <br />i got the exorcist 3 still though! <br />Great <br />yeah its about this really weird gal <br />aka i was bein sarcastic, ha, youd prolly be too scared <br />That sounds like the worst movie ever. <br />Elton john is cool <br />you hate everything i like, haha. <br />o maaaaaan <br />I'm never comin over <br />Ill stay at missys instead <br />except im too short so i gotta stand on a milk crate or somethin<br />Awww <br />cause missys house is my house <br />How does that work? <br />Do you shower together? <br />Ok I didn't mean that <br />hahah <br />But do you? <br />Too bad <br />Damn girl <br />hah <br />ok <br />Ok?! <br />yupp <br />Whoa. <br />Is there room for 3 in one bed? <br />and we're tiny? <br />Ok <br />Daryls comin too though <br />I mean, you like pizza don't you? <br />:-D urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:8437 2004-07-12T16:50:00 2004-07-12T20:56:38Z 2004-07-12T20:56:38Z being sick two days before surgery is totally awesome<br />especially if the surgery is to help you breathe better through your nose, and you have a cold<br />totally awesome timing!! urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:8047 2004-07-11T17:33:00 2004-07-11T21:37:05Z 2004-07-11T21:37:05Z pyramids<br />clean urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:7703 2004-06-23T18:09:00 2004-06-23T22:12:31Z 2004-06-23T22:12:31Z fireworks tonight. <br />been sittin at my house all day. <br />i watched tv.... i never watch tv. it sucked. i feel like blah. urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:7649 2004-06-22T21:14:00 2004-06-23T01:19:47Z 2004-06-23T01:19:47Z i keep sitting in this maroon swivel chair clicking links on the internet, thinking that maybe i'll click something interesting. but really the only places i go to are livejournal and crimelibrary and there's only so much i can handle of each. maybe someone updated their livejournal in the two minutes that it's going to take me to write this post and then i can go and be entertained for another minute or so, before i realize i don't even know the person i'm reading about because they're just some random gal or dude that added me because of my pictures. <br /><br /><br />i'm losing motivation and i'm losing it fast. urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:7321 2004-06-22T02:06:00 2004-06-22T06:34:48Z 2004-06-22T06:40:32Z i figured i was due for a sober entry. read the subject and think about it for awhile. try it, it's actually really funny. shana boone mayrand. hahah.<br /><br />my hair is short like a boy and quite damaged... i need to do something about that.<br /><br />today i watched the oldest lady in the world mow her lawn. it was cute in a weird sort of way. she kept looking at me then i watched a bunch of little dudes play basketball and ride bikes. one of them was a chubby little mexican guy and he was trying to boss everyone around. i started laughing and tried to put myself in their shoes, like thinking back to being ten or something and school just getting out. things seemed a lot more fun and adventurous then. seems as though when you get older your imagination dies. things are too serious now. but being serious is not on my top five list of things i want to do right now. so some people are just going to have to fucking deal with that and stop bothering me!<br /><br />we went to some stigmatic church tonight. i don't know, it was supposed to be really creepy and everyone built it up to be so sweet, but we got there and it was just like, oh okay, this is pretty lame. lori was freaking out though. i swore and everyone yelled at me and said i was being disrespectful, but fuck that. who cares if i swear. i think "jesus" has better things to do than to listen to the sentences that come out of my mouth at 11:00 at night. yeah, whatever... everyone go see the movie 'saved' and then get back to me. jena malone knows whats up. urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:7010 2004-05-31T03:00:00 2004-05-31T07:02:45Z 2004-05-31T07:02:45Z whatever<br />what the fuck ever]<br /><br /><br /><br />i lost m yphone tonight<br />i lost my fuuucking cell phone<br />and now im talking to geoff and missy<br />and i want to text mike v back but i CANT<br />because i lOSSt my phonE<br />and i have nO IDEA hwere it is<br />and i met some funny people tonight<br />but some of them were sketchy<br /><br />and it takes long time for 4 pople to pee<br />and fuck this<br />i need to stop updatin gmy dj when i am drunk<br />and whatever'ahwtatthefuckever<br /><br /><br /><br />i probably wont remember htis<br />and i probably wont care<br />i just want to find my fucking cell phone urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:6847 2004-05-30T03:29:00 2004-05-30T07:30:14Z 2004-05-30T07:30:14Z i owe just a little a lot money $$$$ on text messaging this month<br /><br />tonight yeah work no<br />but phone yes i wish my battery didnt suck<br />im drunk as hell<br />apparently its cool to let peopele drinka nd drive these days<br />im too drunk to contineu<br />WHATEVER<br /><br />ALCHOLCIK urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:6578 2004-05-24T00:08:00 2004-05-24T04:09:23Z 2004-05-24T04:09:23Z well,<br /><br /><br />fuck this, fuck this severely. urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:6298 2004-05-23T03:20:00 2004-05-23T07:26:51Z 2004-05-23T07:26:51Z girls in stupid hats,<br /> fat girls wearing clothes they shouldn't be wearing, <br />guys in cheesy sunglasses, <br />mexicans that don't speak english, <br />people that thing they are the shit because they know all the words to every rap song on the radio<br /><br /><br />well fuck!<br />i just summed up my night at work perfectly!<br /><br />i wrote nate a 3 page note<br />texted a little<br />talked to the boy in the lame sunglasses for far too long<br />saw candace's brother and sandro, familiar faces i was pleased to see <br />and that really funny security guard leon<br />that guy is a riot<br />i think he has braces still, which makes him even more of a riot<br /><br /><br /><br />this is <br />re<br />dick<br />you<br />lus urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:5942 2004-05-19T21:13:00 2004-05-20T01:21:20Z 2004-05-20T01:22:36Z <b> &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;more car rides,<br />&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;more conversation ----------------------------------------<wbr />&gt;<br /></b><br /><br />we really are rockstars<br />not playing them<br />this is our anthem<br />missy, drive straight! my stomach hates you<br />can i hit it in the morning<br />you got anything else thats good like this?<br />FUCK COCAINE HARDCORE!<br />his voice is so smooth<br />kazam!<br />ha ha hA HA HAHAAHHAHA<br />i watched the NKOTB cartoon religiously<br />aint nothin but a gangsta party<br />does it have the KM at the top?<br />we just got gas<br />thats all i have to say<br />i don't have any conversation starters<br />that sign back there said sexton and this one says middlesex<br />ask george<br />until my eyes are swollen shut<br /><br />this wind sucks<br />WATCH!<br />i never feel like i'm in another country<br />guess who's going to see ETID right now<br />oh my god this is so amazing<br />ontario. on-tari-OH!<br />how's that sound, huh?<br />it's really hot in here lets turn it up<br />ducks eat for free at subway<br />i hope they have other shirts<br />this is ridiculous<br />i dont understand these signs<br />its legal for women to walk around<br />what if theres girls like that at the show<br />why cant they make a seatbelt you can wear while you're laying down<br />this turn has got to stop<br />65 aint nothin'<br /><br />i shouldnt be awake right now<br />its horrible, i feel like i'm in a haunted house<br />i hate smorgasboards<br />missy doesn't know ZAO<br />DEAR TIFFANY!<br />401 towards toronto, AND FOOD!<br />beg for sleep<br />this is like our tour journal<br />theyd be like what the hell<br />a couple miles off<br />dont they know ANYTHING about fast food?<br />ridiculous!<br />cause mike and i are supposed to go later<br />woah, wait<br />why are the roads pink?<br />its better than the yellowbrickroad<br />reclinable backseats<br />there we go, lay down seatbelt!<br />are you calling me a whale?<br />follow the pink road urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:5694 2004-05-19T21:12:00 2004-05-20T01:12:59Z 2004-05-20T01:13:31Z <b> &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;car&nbsp;&nbsp;ride&nbsp;&nbsp;to&nbsp;&nbsp;iowa<br />&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;lori&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;shana&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;missy<br /></b><br /><br />#<br /><br />we can start a riot back here!<br />what is that kid doing? <br />hahahah!<br />shana, shana!<br />you guys are liars<br />what the fuck state are we in?<br />i feel like i'm playing frogger<br />thats a sweet car<br />what?<br />the people of illinois welcome you <br />fuck you, illinois!<br />shit, cant sing along anymore<br />aww... he's so... aww<br />what are you writing down?<br />the fat girl who dropped her pants<br />i don't know<br />i don't know how much yet<br />biggest gangsta ever<br />hahahah<br />busta rymes dude!<br />what up now!<br /><br />and he's gonna be cooking for me<br />nah man im oo show<br />ill tell yu when its done<br />FUCKING CONTACT!<br />is this the felix one?<br />look! new york!<br />see if it says anything about taking pennies<br />ahhh~<br />im gonna do it when we stop<br />holy fuck i'm stuck<br />do you know how much trouble we'd be in?<br />and then i'd die<br />WHAT did he just say?<br />i dont know the words<br />its a new creation<br />whatup dude!<br />WAAAOOOOOOAHHH<br />he has to pass us just to check us out<br />damn<br />wake up lori haha<br /><br />at least we left lori at the smoke shop!<br />look it's 15 mile<br />that's good to know<br />i'm WAY past .08<br />no<br />can i use some?<br />uhoh. oh no. oh oh oh /<br />see i told you we should have played that one<br />the guys with america on their car<br />holy fucking shit! oh-my-god!<br />maybe they really did leave me<br />thats the worst part<br />it didnt even have a bell<br />ow, bitch<br />i'd light my hair on fire<br />bob barker and bob marley!<br />come on down!<br />sorta looking chipmunk<br />back to back<br /><br />it's totally different?<br />lori is a CD licker<br />she licks CDs<br />why is that so amusing?<br />i was gonna say that<br />well, good!<br />i don't think it's gonna work<br />well, good!<br />remixing it!<br />i wanna go see them!!!!<br />awww, motherfucker!<br />prairie ridge for prairie dogs<br />haha we all did that<br />while you're driving 100mph<br />erra erra remix<br />ttttretarded<br />that's why i cleaned it<br />we can share raisins<br />i want my own raisins<br />turn that shit up!<br />hey whats up?<br /><br />look how long my tongue is<br />you already did<br />2 lanes<br />theres a city called sandwich<br />that was fucked up<br />eeeEEEEEEeeeeeeeeee<br />AAAAAAaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAA<br />HAHAHH!<br />you're fucking it up!<br />she's still going!<br />this is not fucking youth choir!<br />what time is it?<br />did i miss the 5:00 free crack giveaway?<br />i don't do crack<br />are you gonna do the high guitar part again?<br />achoo<br />ohhhhhh shit!<br />seriously! seriously!<br />he's developed a bad studder he hasnt told you about yet<br />dodoodooooodoooooo<br /><br />it's a prarie, get it straight<br />that sign says do not pass <br />but where the fuck am i gonna pass?<br />a performance<br />achoooo<br />:::slaps leg repeadedly:::<br />sars, what the hell<br />why cant the sunroof take up the whole roof?<br />owww fuk!<br />awww<br />my bobby pins<br />don't eat them<br />i'm full urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:5500 2004-05-14T01:30:00 2004-05-14T05:33:33Z 2004-05-14T05:33:33Z i have not graced deadjournal with my presence in quite sometim ebecause i kind of forgot it existed. but right now i remember it mainly because of bud light and boredome and being tired but not tired enough to actually sleep. <br />tonight was really niceBY THE WAY<br /><br />im listeing to YOUR DAILY DOSE OF EMO AND OTHER THNGS THAT STRIKE MY FANCY THAT SHOULD STRIKEYOURS TOO<br />yes i title my mixes and yes im retarded goodnight urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:5285 2004-04-29T02:05:00 2004-04-29T06:08:22Z 2004-04-29T06:08:22Z some people are really fucking annoying, and where the hell is my carmex? by the way, i'm bored and i have to pee and once again SOME PEOPLE ARE REALLY FUCKING ANNOYING<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />fuck you too bitch call the cops urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:4990 2004-04-23T13:41:00 2004-04-23T17:43:37Z 2004-04-23T17:43:37Z paper trails of the undead? <br />random grave, place of death, autopsy photos/report... resurrection?<br /><br />deadjournal is killing me here.<br />so is this excruciating fucking migraine. i'm going on three days in a row, baby.<br /><br />the bleeding, in past tense, tonight.<br /><br /><br />hi mindy. urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:4819 2004-04-22T02:51:00 2004-04-22T06:54:08Z 2004-04-22T06:54:57Z i knew this was a really really bad idea<br />but what happens when really really bad ideas are also really really good ideas at the same time?<br /><br /><br />or maaaybe it's 'what happens when really good ideas are also really bad ideas'? that changes the meaning a little i think.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />either way,<br />i'm just having fun, is all..........<br />........................... urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:4411 2004-04-18T03:25:00 2004-04-18T07:28:56Z 2004-04-18T07:28:56Z i dont think ive had raspberry<br /> never heard cinnamon<br />hahah ew no<br />but i am packin on the pounds<br />oh, too bad, i want you to ruin your life so bad<br />at the mall today<br />hes a goof<br /> so i acted like i got really offended<br />i think you're georgeous. <br />why are you trying to take my place, i'm the only one allowed to be a compulsive liar.<br />im sleeepy<br />this is bad<br />yes u nerd<br />i feel bad now<br />dude, yes you areeee<br />you make absolutely no sense<br />that was like 2839472389 days ago urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:4198 2004-04-11T05:51:00 2004-04-11T09:56:28Z 2004-04-11T09:56:28Z dude so whatever<br />i just got home<br />and i'm freezing cause someone had a really good idea to go in a hottub thats freezing cold<br />so derrick dave emily and i were under the top thing, in the hotCOLDtub and i/m drunk, again... and really cold, did i mention that yet? yeah, the only person online right now is geoff (ptdub) and he is mildly entertaining but i'm tired tired tired<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />DEADJOURNAL, oh deadjournal.<br /><br />i have to go to work semi/soon<br />sweet mad motherfucking shit, that sucks.<br /><br /><br /><br />ian this ones for you<br /><br />:&gt;&gt;&gt; urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:4067 2004-04-09T02:45:00 2004-04-09T06:50:23Z 2004-04-09T06:50:23Z i am disgustingly drunk right now, ; tripping over shoes and shit on the way to the kitchen and my head hurts really fucking bad. i wanted food but apparently it is too much work...::::::<br />::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::<wbr />::::<br /> iliveinhopesthaticanliveuptome<br /><br /><br /><br />i wish i was a lot cooler than i actually am, well shit, i'm really fucking un-sober. <br />fuck, <br /><br /><br />i say this only because i know no one reads this shit, it's deadjournal 0: who has deadjournal?nobody. urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:3710 2004-04-08T01:56:00 2004-04-08T06:06:34Z 2004-05-20T01:28:22Z dont know when but a day is gonna come<br />i got sidetracked<br />thats me only its a boy<br />hahahahhhahahaha<br />but its so homo.<br />i get lifted too.<br />by pot<br />no but i will lift you high in the air <br /> thats a lie actually fat girls in green sweatpants have no business ok nevermind then.<br />shorts are for girls<br />shorts suck<br /><br />i think my numbers on like a bathroom stall somewhere or something<br /><br />DUDE i just cut my finger on a can of spagettios<br />cause random people keep calling me<br />they dont know meee<br />annoying<br />ok. take care of it.<br />spagettios are dangerous<br /><br />hold on it's being weiiird<br />you cant see them i decided<br />show me one<br />that was the point <br />and that one sucks<br /> and youre so tiny and cute<br />you are NOT a beast!<br />i am not! <br />and he spit fire<br />ok sorry.<br />hitting that girl in the face with your knee or kicking her in the stomach<br /> SHE'S a fucking beast<br />there are any more good ones<br />its me running<br />its so funny<br /> ok give me more<br /> duuude i really wish i could find that picture <br />nope<br />shit<br />what you got now<br />so i changed my mind<br />and im a girl<br />so who cares<br />well i think it's cool.<br />well i think youre cool.<br />im terrified of <br />gross<br />nothing to be scared of but they;re soooo scary<br />i was a clown once though <br />cause those SUCK SO BAD<br />and i miss my uncle joe<br /> oh yeh?<br />charles?<br />charley<br />youre a doll<br />yeah yeah i know<br />and tupac, who by the way lives in my basement incase you were wondering<br />pardon?<br />time to go out<br /> bye bye<br />have fun urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:3564 2004-04-08T00:12:00 2004-04-08T04:23:04Z 2004-04-09T17:45:02Z .<br />.<br />....<br />does he not know how fucking retarded she is?<br />it was the worst<br />flying past<br />oh my god, you've got to be kidding me.<br />yeah that was,... rediculous<br />such a moron!<br />hahahah<br />how do i get, wait, what? we're lost. <br />no fucking way are we lost.<br />when we were signing it to eachother, the whole time<br />where'd you get those pants?<br />we were trying not to laugh, that was so funny.<br />alright well i'm getting home.<br />what?<br />i have no idea what you just said. <br />you're weird, oh well.<br />i'll call you tomorrow. <br />what are you doing? <br />no shit! <br />i have to call george<br />she's going later<br />she can say she's with us, or whatever<br />alrighty<br />i hear that<br />i don't know, is it true? <br />alright i'll talk to you tomorrow<br />seeya urn:lj:deadjournal.com:atom1:__fuckass:3212 2004-04-05T22:09:00 2004-04-06T02:17:40Z 2004-04-06T02:19:50Z we sent a girl to the hospital today at our game, the lakeview girls are a bunch of bitches, except the ones that aren't.... but horsegirl is bigger than a horse which might be why her teammates call her beast and we call her horsegirl.<br /><br /><br />my neck hurts, but the other team gave us pizza.<br />i work 12-10 tomorrow, who in the mad motherfuck scheduled me for that. oh wait, missy, you suck.<br /><br />in other news, i'm still addicted to shows,<br />and i want to see nate<br />...